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2/6/2010
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gothiclight
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11:16 PM
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I need people to write the news, as i can't be arsed to do it myself.
note i've added nested links to the front page (took 30 mins) which seemed prefereably to nursing a 50p coke in the hope some auras turnd out right.
it was convuluted - but i got a set of auras of a women falling onto my lap, a hole in the wall, someone pokeing their hand through, a block to the right (3 steel blocks been put on from myside) people playing table tenns, a board being put up covering the hole, a dividing bar/and another cover abusinessman fllig through the ceilin (being cought) and a few other things. including a car hiting a lamp post. this was all when working at the computer today adding friends on myspace.
anyway i went out, this huge desire to go out, i was origionaly planning on staying in, forcing me to do stuff. anyway i thought the women fallig in my lap was the sign up i got here today! but then i ended up at the dsu bar at the same time as 3 blokes (may have been 4) and this woen walked in. and they asked about a hole in the wall. and i was standing in a position where the dividing bar goes up, and i was playing the aura back and going does this fit? as they went upstairs as well! and were playing what ever games they were.... though i refused to stick round to see if a women, was going to fall on my lap or anything else! as i prefered to get some work done! and well a bottle of wine in the house seemed preferable.
on the way back, their was a parked car - with the back smashed in, which made me thinkabout the car going into a lamp post, but i shook my head and walked on as ignoring other thoughts (the voices) and other plans - it was like, it almost fits but..... so i came up with a plan of nuking the broadsheets of the map, by giving people the tools to write the news for free. henc my change.
as you can have a newspaper for free! then i can charge fo letting you set the adverts up! (and a proper title) with the same functionaity as the time, daily mail, bbc news whic are exactlly the same which means we can stop paying journalsts because we the people can flag our own stories up - on digg, twitter/facebook and things like that. obviously the reason why all the journalists hate me - ignore my stories! whichis ironic as if they postd my story on the councl tax dispute/illegal break in under the mental health act when i posted it to them, i wouln' have need to write a bloody news site in the first place. ergo if they all end up out of work because of me its their own f**king fault, and i have a few other ideas as well, but we shall suck it and see as i keep seeing the white house blow up with every change/enhancement i make and thats worying me now! as i can see a link, but yes ---- a lot of my plans, seem to invovle followng the civil war lan/idea through to its logical conclusion - not plan/scnario i particulary want to see happen, but not one i'm scared of eithr, if you take my drift? as i see to be a victim of events here/trying tosurivive and well if they want a war - i have no issue with it...
but id rather someone bought me out/gave me lots of cash so i could work on other things instead, as i reckon i can give people the infrastructure to do most things for free/put other people out of work! which is why you perhaps need to reconsider your views on unemployment benefit as i reckn people pay too much for stuff as is and we should be doing it for free! which is perhaps why we need to consider marx and other ideas like that... just a thought! as i plan my next move:
how much does it cost to gain a channel on a satalight network btw? just curious (not that i'm the market currently at all, as i contrast it with net speeds as well perhas looking ahead way too far! as i rather like the idea of a speed camera esculting into a nuclear war (fits my sense of humour in the end) which is why i was hoping for alernatives to war
and just in case i left a business card on the cash point (some spare blue tak on the board above) as one of the voices said asshole one when i tried leaving one there before. and it made no sense as i was getting stuff which was scaring me off dong things previously, and well the fear seems artifical! as the more you do it - the more it vanishes as i used to (still do) get the asshole voice everything time i try and expand functionality/tidy up look and feel and thats the only thing you lot are interestedin!
everything else scares you off - and it seems in order to win this war, i have to improve look and feel as thats the only thing which appears to be holdingme back (that and i never proof read anythng/check my spelling) so yes i am getting very suspicios of thi reality as i appear capable of doing the same work as legion can. providing i just get on with it! as well all the stuffs their, more or less and well what is it you lot do again?
obviously your being paid, i get f**k all which is another problem, and why i wouldn't mind if people started blowingthings up in another civil war as well that seems test of strength/skill staminer/wis and well most of you would be crap at it - and its perhaps honest! as i might actually do better in that world if i can't bring any money in via this method at all!
i.e. none of you wouldhire me, because i was a psychic and a witch - and well -the more thin about it, as time runs out...
why am i humouring the system and all? theiris a time limit on my stuff, if the money runs out compleatly, i get nothing in - i may have no choice but to start killng people to survive i.e. it that or suicide as i already know britian [parliment] onl wants to f**k people like me over. so we shall see which wins, my business plan or fate - as i am only responding to events now!
and your all crap - obviousl civil wars take awhile to kick off (look at the delay in the first one) but the seeds are already there an the aura of the dominos as hit me already - and i'm in two minds which direction to take this now - sit back do nothing, let war happen - or do something else intead - actually i don't think i can change events, i just observe and watch as it deveops again...
tick tock - the mouse doth grow! and the big headed moros in parliment have missed the point again
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2/4/2010
1/30/2010
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gothiclight
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6:21 PM
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typical you get a clairvoynant flash of a the profile photo of someone on myspace before you add them - and then when you add them, you get sent a link to a what to do in nuclear fall out. one wonders if i should worry about things like this: http://www.youtube.com/faberoptime sometimes i have to wounder what is going through their heads.
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this lot doesn't help, when i remember the clairvoyant flashes when i went into dsu. planes moving on tehran, followed 5 mins later by the image of nukes going back into silos. which i thought was a joke - but perhaps i'm being nieve and well i wouldn't put it past the americans to think of this type of thing.
(perhaps just routine) but i thought the images were joking, as i was thinking of other stuff at the time - and its the type of thing you get in moving thoughts on. (think it was the day i got the orangutang image) which was the morning, then read the news story posted that day later - but i had no link back to the images in dsu so this type of thing makes me woried at times.
(i was hoping the world had moved on) i was hoping for something which would boost my sales (sigh)
in the meantime the efforts from my day are here:
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1/29/2010
1/26/2010
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gothiclight
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11:17 PM
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walked down to durham, went into dsu for a glass of coke. saw this aura of what looked to be the barmaid chucking me out as she was pouring the coke. I said nothing and went and sat down with my drink.
this other barmaid then comes in from downstairs, to get her and i see a general chucking out aura thingy... and well when she came back my curiosity got the better of me,so i had to go and ask. didn't I.
excuse me, "i saw this aura of you chucking me out" and need to know what you were up to...
apparently some beer was off, she said she would have asked anyway and she volunteered that closing was at 12. maybe it was because i'm drinking coke. i keep thinking if i drink water too much (its free) i will get removed like every other pub in durham, who hate that kind of thing. but that might be pushing it here.
Anyway i could find no link to the image, to anything which was going on at all *sigh* i think its the same barmaid i saw the tennis aura that time (i.e. she did play) so f**k knows what that was all about. got some auras of clocks later (the one i sell on my site) when i went to sit down, as well as an aura of a ghost thing in the alcove and a picture frame over my head. entire thing reminds me of the one in the angel a year or so ago now, the who was eating choclate all the time. (aura of her eating choclate) and the other staff confirmed she was stuffing her face with it _all_ the time.
perhaps i'm getting paranoid now, as they keep changing the times there. not that i was planning on staying out.
i also saw that bald bloke (guy i saw an aura of a flow in his head) as well. didn't say anything but he had the pentagram on his right ear instead this time. this is the one who commented that a women in greece said she had seen a girl following him around (i.e. hes had it before) and i wounder how much does need to be said to change things, influence events and how long does it take a seed to grow... as i keep seeing that type of thing on him instead of the flower, since i spoke that time.
and how big a seed do you need, to get the desired effect - or is that just better results (sigh) sulking now as that was crap. but i don't get images on everyone, just here and there. which adds to my anoyance as well. no concistency, but with some people its all the time. everytime they show up - i see an image on them at times. (strangers as well) as i reflect on dominos and chain effects. follow the auras, the people and connect the dots... (or is that just me passing the time)
so yeah f**k knows whats going on there, but i think i need a life!
as i'm not sure what i have qualifies now.
and i really need to fill in a tax form as well! i think (tehcnially its for the year before i delcared independence, so yeah... f**k - i made a loss, what more do they need to know)
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gothiclight
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5:08 PM
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2.5 - 3 years ago. i was looking for a job, working on this site. (early days) back when the gypsis hit me with the your going to be a sucesful business man, and a few ther things. when i had a vew clairvoyany images and auras of things.
mainly dominos lined up. (you know one of those dominos runs? hit one they all fall down) and it was shapped in multiple paths which went to a heart of dominoes. and they all fell down before a door way and its bugging the crap out of me, as i've got the image again today (not the heart bit) but the line bit going to the heart. and previously ive had dominos shaking not moving with it stressing me out before now
and well its still stressing me out but in a different way.
perhaps i no longer care. as back then i was getting auras of ants climbing all over me, other doorways and the comments needing to be balanced to pass through and other s**t of that nature. they were auras and well any attempts to get a job failed!
so i was stuck doing this site not thinking i could pull it off, and its kind of changed. over the last 3 years i would rather die then do anything else, to the point i announced indepence formation of a seperate state. article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of rights, while arguing the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave. and well i spent the entire day in mediation
as i've been under psychic attack as a female occultist just removed me for no reason on myspace/facebook/and another site. apparently i am a jerk and i have no idea why. as shes been saying lotd of good stuff in my direction. then next thing we're on msn, she strips off way too quick, i'm naked. andi think i did something wrong. as i should have said something else? as she wanted a demon in me or something - and well i think i've got my wires crossed. as she removed me! which perhaps teaches me for trying to speak to anyone.
tried to sort it out, and talk here around - but its hard to see what she expects of me! really
so this may be my first groupie gone bad. i never did trance! or rather its the one thing i couldn't do on the psychic courses actually i as crap on the psychic courses, everythings pretty random and you build up stories over time, but yeaah she was hot, and she kept going on about how she didn't want me to wank over her, forget about her. while arguing she was with a bloke, we couldn't meet up. and her moods/body language were changing from one extreme to the other. so yeah scared the hell out of me! in a i can't read this women - or whats going on in here head at all!
so it will perhaps teach me for speaking to anyone at all, pity she was hot. most women do not strip off that quick! either too shy or well i'm used to me being the one striping performing for them, so i think i may have got my wires crossed and should have complimented, said nice things intead. either way i've made a pigs ear of the entire thing.
anyway psychic attack/meditation cleared - and another balief notice showed up. i haven't batted an eyelid to it. now i keep coming back to magick and the job fiasco (biblical reference) being torn down, built back up. and certain other occultists who did magick to turn their life around. and well
i think its an act.
starting to think its not goingto matter what i say/or do at a certain point at these people are random.
i.e. they either see all good, or all bad with no inbetween. and to be honest the more i do, put into it - the more crazy they get (sort of) as i'm having trouble finding people who can sum things up (and this includes judges) as you just see prejudice/blinkers or some other flaw. and i've taken a 100 page document court case i wrote ages ago, and rejuced it to a paragraph.
the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave (article 4 - if only for legal grounds) and i refuse to be bound by any government i didn't elect. especially when they are locking witches up for their belief set (as their is no come back with the british government at all) and those christians just run, and anyway i should probably have been on benefit anyway. so why did i write 100 pages? to explain all that...
f**k knows, anyway i am not going to pay their crappy tax which is worse then ship money as i do not have the funds,and we the people didn't sign up to them! as most people voted against it anyway! not that that matters, as i wont be bound by the masses on this, as they fucked it up when they broke in here detained me for my belief set. and well its too late to appologise now, unless someone wants to write me a check for a few million (120?) so i can work on this site in peace! as thats where my minds at now inter alia bon sur!
i.e. trying to think what i can do, to move this on change it. but i keep coming back to those images - and i think i'm screwed no matter what i do now - as i don't think i can change events beyond a certain point. curious if any of it matters at all in the end (must do) as if you didn't do any work/write anything nothin would get done- which bemuses me a little - as i see no rason for going into people, delaying them. unless that experience is what shapes you into writting/speaking this crap up to begin with type thing (sigh) should have stuck with the monkey, as i suck at this
a few of the other dreams anoy me now. as you come under psychic attack and well something happens, and it goes and it weird. as i'm still left trying to work out how to spend my time to move it on
i either seem to be stuck with friend ads, standing in the steet or doing a few other things, and well i don't think it matters in the long run - and a lot of that hostility is yeah - wrong.
image is everything beyond a certain point perhaps? and i'm left just responding to events, not really being arsed with anything anymore. as its starting to get a joke!
speak, don't speak - make your f**king minds up as some of those reactions are extreme
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on the subject of clairyounce, certain image and changes to them. seem pluggig into emotion as you almost start wanting the image to change/do something else - and its kind of weird to explain as some images get no reaction at all. and stuff that did doesn't. and you keep getting hit with them, and yea - it goes. till nothing is left perhaps? and the pychic attack might have lifted something up, removed it as i'm not sure what these images are playing at, trying to prove beyond a certain point.
as even if you relax, you still get them - and there is a subtle emotional residue? or something and its yeah... no idea at all whats going on here! or if i'm supposed to read into it, ignore it - or intupret it beyond a certain point. their are themes,and some of the images progress over time (years) but...
is their a neat little plot or is it coming back onitself? i.e. in part i am the product of everything i am shown and do, and well beynd a certain point some things you wouldn't do and well others fall naturally into it. i.e. some things, thought bear no emotion, resistence at all (Feel right) and well others are like trying to push through treckle. unfortunatly if you do not face your fears and push the boundaries now and then you don't develop as a person.
i.e. you can improce sitting on the bed thinking about things, rehersing it. but come to doing it in practice with other people it just goes. and yet i am curious if just doing it live/practice in real life actually improves you quicker. or if you need the time to go with that. i.e. doing something early an the time spent meditating on it corrects it to thepoint its useful.
anyway talking giberish now - as how much practive makes perfect, and well how much theory do you need. and well what working in reality. as doing some stuff (on this site) or this life again. i would have done some things differently (still the site) but i wouldn't have wasted time on other crap, and i would have spent more time on well yeah... silly little things which bear no bearing onto it. as i think i lost steam early on - and that was a mistake. i.e. wrong emails/confirmaton mails an yeah silly little things which make no sense to anything. as i perhaps should have worked some stuff out sooner (missted the hints!!!) and thats the problem now. as their isn't a consistent hit in that regard. it almost as though people do things to flag things up.
and thats the problem, if your working on something, and or need a change. you get someone which does something, and your supposed to go ahhh - thats a problem, and jump on it perhaps?
not that it helps me with female occultists though. as the scarlet women seems a law unto herself, and i think i will just have to continue my life - confused. as i have no f**king idea what i did wrong here. most of the time i do! and thats really anoying here...
perhas i should have picked up on something? or said something else - but surely i can't be expected to be a word smith all the f**king time? or perhaps i didn't maintain a hard on (id got no sleep) or didn't say she looked good, so yeah argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh women! they will be the death of me!
its almost as though honesty has been turned into a crime or something, and well i wouldn't mind but she looked hot! so arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh keeps going on about how shes ugly, so i may have over complicated it. and/or should have typed instead... maybe i should have comened on the skull intead. as i don't see how you can win with women who build you up so! and then turn without women to the other extreme, start slagging you off as being a jerk and other things? as it should seems uncalled for an excessive amongst other things.
i.e. how can honestly thinking a womens hot, be a bad thing? (confused now)
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1/25/2010
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gothiclight
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3:35 PM
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we need some humour for times gone by, perhaps the one need to reign in parliment again.
after all the many can't be trusted at all:
(obviously this is my attempt at humur and to myknowlege this conversation has never taken place at all as i try and highlight some points)
the one: prime minister please shut up, you don't even have a majority here.
primeminsister: yes we do, we have more seats then everyone else.
the one: then please expain to me why only 16.2% of the population voted you in?
primeminister: errr well, not everyones entitled to vote
the one: i see, you do realise the monarch can take their seat at 12? and that your currently charging boys aged 10, 11 for the most brutal and hurendous crimes. so can you explain to me, how 16.2% of the population makes you a majority? or for that matter, how certain of your party, no longer want you in? how many voted you in?
primeminister (getting anoyed): you wern't voted in by anyone
the one: my vote isn't for sale, i am not a slave, and the many do not rule the one.
we exist to reign you in, as you lot have already f**ked this country over, how many times?
whats the deficit on again?
primeminister: 175 billion
the one: no thats how much you overspent last year, how much _is_ the deficit again?
primeminister: err, well
the one: *tapping fingers*
primeminister: err, we'll get back to you
the one: so are you actually going to pay it back anytime soon?
primeminister (smug grin): we are going to half it by 2014, as..
the one: NO that was the amount your overspending each f**king year! you have no plans for bringing money into this nation, and no plans of paying anyone back. and at this time - i have creditors breathing down my neck, asking when all this lot is going to be paid!
primeminister: errr
the one:you have been a very naughty boy, off with your head!
primeminister: you can't do that. you signed that agreement with the un
the one: so i did, so the question remains, what do i do with you, and your parliment. how much were your expenses last year?
primeminister: i was good,
the one: is that so? and your speaker?
primeminster: well.. perhaps we need more checks
the one: so you would have no objection to me, electing someone who hates the many int that position now would you. as i take up some of my old perogativies, and well keep an eye on you?
primenister: err
the one: after all, it is for the good of the people, and you lot have been naughty...
primeminister: well
theone: good, glad that ones settled then
primeminister: can i go now?
theone: you may, however i do have a minor little issue. with royal courts justicies, dismissing argument. with the statement its a democracy, while gareth bowen, from durham. argued "parliment is not the law"
primeminister: err thats something we aren;t willin go into now
theone: i see, and rounding witches up?
primeminister: well we thought he was ill
theone: please explain to me, how anyone arguing parliment is not the law, i am not a slave, and what was it: the many do not rule the one? is insane...
primeminister: (looking really uncomfy now)
theone: yes numbers, deficits and plans to pay it back? have you a date in mind?
primeminister: well...
theone: is this the election date?
primeminister: errr
theone: thought so
primeminister: sorry got to go
theone: yes you do!
and with that so do I as the many do not, and never will rule the one. I am not a slave. Parliment has no plans to pay the money back, and neither do I at this current time - not until i bring money in again andwe will die in defence of the land, before we surender to parliment, and their law.
durham council is not, and never was voted in by us and we will die before we recognise it here. see articles 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights for more. least i get into another rant on convention and the law |
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gothiclight
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2:25 PM
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demanding notice for a date. they canf*k off their. this is probably the point other people would start making threats of retalitary strikes on their land, if they invade this one....
i will leave that to the peoples discretion, as i'm not going to call for violence until they fire the first strike. invasion of this land, removal of goods is a breach of protocol 1, article 1 and trasspass we do not recognise duress in law, and will hold any government in contempt as the stuff is mine.
please note you are paying chrisitans and other religions off, while satanists and other pagans (the old man with pentagrams on his hand who was assaulted up by nhs staff) are being manhandeled into mental institutions against their wll. i will have none of it
your law sucks. we tried your system of government it doesn't work
that is why we declared independence citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights. you do not support human rights, you have no susppect from thep eople, and well your incompetant. we will never sign up to durham council, we will never give them money, and we are seriously questionig the wisdom of ever fillin in a tax form for the previous tax year!
we will defend this land and our people to the death!
(admitedly their is only one of me now) and the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave, parliment is not the law, and yeah i no longer care for your government, or your people at all.
so go to hell! free men live here, and we will defend the land to the death
(if 299 other people wish to join me in this site, and help me out) that would be good - but we are going to do it as one, or as many here!
EDIT: my dispute has nothing to do with the people on this site, as this is a dating site/social networking site/human rights site which was intended to cator for a range of views on the international scence in an effort to compete against the other american sites.while giving the people a change to write their own news stories. as it stands my life/career is going into making this work - notwithstanding issues with the psychic side/britian which is eating into my time - as i intend to keep improving it, and the features (look and feel) to the day i day! as i think a lot of its look and feel now, but i seem destined to go through the palastine crisis thing, begore making "peace with the many", if ever i do... but you might want to check out certain prophacies for more, as i know who i am now! and well the priest of satan approach is to hold onto goods for as long as possible, obviously with the knowlege that you can't be blackmailed with invasion/loss of them - as i distinguish between christian priests scared of owning gods/and the attrachment/fear of loss you get with them. as its subtle and the lines blur with time.
as it stands we will not surender our goods, or our land. and yeah we are using all our resources to bring money in here! please go to our www.cafepress.com/thesextree and buy something now. obviously we only get something like 25p for most things, and well i think the store hasn;t been paid for. so wed have to sell loads, before we see anything from that, type of thing. ce'st la vive - so much for marketing on the international scene
incidently if i don't stand up to britian, as one against many and see this out. i will never see a peace table. which perhaps means i am going to need to be shot in the head by britian (and they are going to have to mean it) before anyone buys into this. as i know how cynical some of the sides are.
as it stands. i am of the view - if i die. then i probably wasn't _the_ antichrist, and well if i live, meah your screwed as the interesting thing on the psychic attacks is.
these letters no longer have an effect.
the problem is. trying to meditate through that lot, and comingback to it. i just laugh - as i think it out, and those issues are none of my concern, as i'm woried about the next phase now.
which is perhaps the problem. anything britian can do fear wise, pales into comparison to the stuff on the spiritual side. so yeah what comes around, goes around as the saying goes. as the more they make demands, the more they make threats, the more the people will freeze them out, and well the bigger the resulting death toll wll be, as i think its not so much if anyone will die now, but how many. as you f**ked it up ages ago, and it takes ages for the calm to resurface and due to the anoying ripple effect. certain ideas/notion can't be undone. and while some of us are level headed and put it in context, others do not... so you may have a problem here. if you do not recognise our land, and grant the people indepence as they wanted in the first f**king place.
this is a council gone bad! the police force is insane, and well social services/nhs are just a bunch of racist bigots looking to surpress knowlege/get a high on power. as they try and compensate for their own mental ability to come to terms with anything on planet earth. they gravitate to picking off the weak. as though enslaving/bullying them grants them some purpose in life. personally they are scum, and hope they die!
i do not recognise any of their qualifications at all - they haveb't even read around any of the relvent subjects at all. so the fact your actually giving power to people to sign off, on who is and who isn't allowed to speak their mind/teach the occult in public is insane!
worse then the t-4 wards of nazi germani, and the gassing of the jews, and yes it is remoniscent of holding political prisioners ala the russians (to quote one of the unqliaified doctors there)
no such thing as schitzophrian, or mental illness. its all in the mind, and your simply failing to come to terms with your 6th sense inter alia!
the reason witches were outlawed in the bibble, was because some moron always figures it out. and learn the rule: i am not a slave, the many do not rule the one, and finds a voice and thats their fear. the people rally to justice, to common sense and to anyone who would uphold the law, protect the weak, and well parliment is not the law. and no goverment has the right to vote your freedom away
obviously others will perhaps get better at refining the rhetoritc/good at pubic speaking - but the principle is the same, that is what they fear with the occult!
as anyone on that path, has to loose their fear come to terms with self... and well they don't tend to kneel to morons and the rest of the sstem anymore. some are brought off like mohammed, others are executed like jesus, and well others go on to do world domination - depending if they stick to the law, or go f**k it. this game sucks, and its pay back time!
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1/24/2010
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gothiclight
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9:05 PM
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but i got hit with a lot of stuff on the psychic side. calling racism out (this is psychic attack)
and has me desperatily trying to go back over anything i write. (mentally) as someone driving past me today pipped their horn, stuck their finger up at me. walking back from tesco. unless thats the racist?
anyway i'm trying to clarify it as i have no idea why those voices are hitting me like that, as their must be a reason why?
anyway net result it
i end up posting the 69 situation with the offer to obamma (hes on glee) around. to a few more places, and that seems to be quiting it down
i.e. this is my deliberate attempt at balancing it out/trying to clarify things.
its insane - as i can't think of anything i've done anywhere else which could be construed as that, and id rather be thought as queer and its the only thing i can think of at this current time to balance it out.
bring peace. as i hate psychic attack and having to write a tight rope with words all the time. is anoying as hell. as i'm trying to work out, is their anything more obvious/dramtic which could be done given the time?
perhaps i need to add the image, suggestion on other stuff i do as the world peace bit is perhaps stale/out of date. badly written and i'm perhaps not coming across properly at all.
unless people are trying to twist the knife into the satanism thing. as i'm not christian/far right/national frot or any of the other religions which persuecute people for being themselves, and i don't want to be associated with any of that lot at all! as its evil in my view.
i.e. i declared indepenence citing article 15, 17 and have no link to britian at all! and its staying that way as far as i can tell
is this too ambigious? as i tend to write stuff, go back over it. and its ambigious as hell! and argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh
apparently my site is too complicated as well, and i need to simplify it. suggestions on navigation welcome here? as i'm trying to appeal to as many users as possible and i sympathise with interfaces and the user experience on that score, which is another point which is anoying me now. as if i'm under psychic attack - i can't do anything. and yet if i start writing stuff down (even gibberish) it goes away. so perhaps i have to keep talking indefinitly and that is the key (bore them to death) so they can't get a word in, or something like that...
do not learn the psychic side - as spirit will show up all the time, and make your life a living hell. as your continully corrected/given input for their agenda. and its anal as hell! trying to keep up, as really i would just like to live in peace, have the cash and do something else instead.
no i am not a slave, and i would rather die then work for someone else now
sharp shooters, and rivel militia (britian) please aim for the head if your going to take me down, as i would like this quick. apparently if spirit were to be belived i would have a blood clot on my brain from the bag incident. but frankly i don't believe a word they say half the time (and i think its ones of those esp sickness con jobs) as a test with wording. changed something made it vanish.
(this was repeated a couple of times) and it came on/went with deliberate intent. so physical injury aside i know they can give the illusion of fear/pain and sickness at other times. besides i believe in the reiki side. and yeah... not going to believe anything like that/worry about it. as its the least of my wories now as i want out of this game!
notwithstanding i seem to be getting more embroiled in the notion/idea of thermonuclear chess by the day (which is the type of thing id get off on - perhaps) because well i no longer beleive in this reality anymore. so yeah... why not! screw as many governments over as possible - for a joke, to p*** off spirit if nothing else, as really someone ought to back off, give me a frigging break here. as im responding to any real information i get, to the best of my ability! and their is a limit to what i can do. if everyone is going into me all the time (dont mean real people) mean spirit, as anyone on this side of the fence is tame, by comparison. unless i go into "i need their vote", praise mode. then everything you say. is trying not to ruffle their feathers/manage them as frankly you have no idea how unstable some of these people are.
fing/blidning coming out with all sorts of crap. like il block you, or other stuff, and its like why? i haven't said or done anything yet.
[note to self, really must start proof reading journal entries more, but that would take all day. and nothing would ever get done on my site at all *sigh* not that i can get anything done, if spirits going into me as well! how the fuck is a 69 position racist? come on, give me a break] |
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as i am actually sysmpathising with al quada comments about "If it was possible to carry our messages to you by words we wouldn't have carried them to you by planes" http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/middle_east/8477413.stm as it mirros my situation. when i tried to do it by the book, ages ago. (see illegal detainment of witches under the mental health act by christians who comiited fraud in breach of 126 of said act) as government never listens to anyone at all. especially on issues like this.
now i could do a very large speal, but i already declared independence citing article 15, 17 of the decleration of human rights here, after the christian council (ok durham police) illegaly broke into my home for being a witch, using the book title "god is evil, the devil is good" i.e. that statement as the excuse. yeah really apaprently satanic witches aren't allowed to teach the occult at all
ok the problem is this:
the many do not rule the one and we are not slave. i don't give a fuck how big your religion is, your government, or your democract. you still can't bind them to government they didn't sign up for.
now a vote doesn't bind people, we are not slaves. i never signed up to durham council, i never voted for it. i never will reocgnise it, and i will no longer tolerate/recognise the britisj justive system either.
ive gone too far/so have they and the comunication trust is now that i'm doing it alone
so heres the deal:
you recognise my chruch and my land as a free an indepenent state. and no i don't reocgnise your land, as i frankly wnat the sanctury of old back, and well my own eclastical courts as i at least will show you the curtosy of giving my reasoned oppinion on every point raised, to show ive understood the bloody thing - (much like strasburg juristprudence) which is somethibg britian seem incapable of. i.e. "that can't be argued" is not acceptable, as anyone coming out with garabge like that, or "its a democracy" isn't worthy to be a judge and should be fired! as the many do not rule the one, and anyone with an appreciation of the law should know that by now. it goes to consent/freewill and nothing else and your soley ultra vires if you think you can fob me off here, i subscribe to a higher power, and its not you! -
(assuming any of your people are stupid enough to bring a case to me) and well... you invade my land,we shoot to kill! as i am concious that too many people have sheltered in misionaries before and got masacred to death by invading armies who have had no respect for the law, and or had an intent on genocide. and well too many people have died already
i have no desire to invade anyone, just hold the line, and well defend my land. so think of this as the quilibrium church as i really do like those cool leather outfits as well (mines fallen apart here) but thats just style.
now i want ossam bin larden, al quada, israel and palastine in a room together so i can bang your friging heads together! as your pissing me off.
and yes mr legal professor i'm going to run rings around you on the principle of defence, and _the law_ as youve never got it all in any of your speeches as far as i an tell. ok you stole the yes you can line, or rather if you hadn't come up with it, nabed it i would, which is anoying as hell. but i digress age has its viture i guess :
the many do not and never will rule the one, any person who wants to break away form their own seperate state/council has that right. you are not bound by any majority/opposing force, we are not slaves! and well your democracies are worth s**t we the people only work together of our own free will so you assume too much at times.
don't push me on this, unless you want [more] blood! as thats my only guarentee
an
anyway i have no issue working with people who don't screw other people over. the one has the rights as many and we called it monarchy once! unfortunatly monarchy fell into the hands of lesser men, and the entire system got fucke dup, and well i seem to be reinventing the church from first principles. and well i did promote the devil to 1-3 above the cross, demoted god to 4-6 which leave sthe son of god, or the devils grand son as the lower you. obviously you lot are going to ignore this, and ignore my ultimatium. and well people are oging to die and i know some monarchies might prefer my idea
because i guarentee if you take me in, and break in here/arrest me/take me down. i will teach the people what i know, and they will rise up and kill you in time, as you can't beat up on them for ever. and i have no issue with using suicide bombing as a political tool - as you lot are ignoring suicides here!
just people i know:
1 person hung themselves, a friend of someone i know
another girls ex hung themselve and died
another women who spoke to me is apparently saving up to buy a gun/1 bullet (she needs 200, and has 70 saves so far)
another women inthe states was contemplating it christmas. but is happy as lary now (new love)
i tried to do it the other week as well! but hanging hurts, so seem to be stuck with the antichrst thing!
and its pissing me off (
this isn't counting the suicides in wales, and any and all the people i don't now. and or any of those who jump in front of trains and well all the suicides in britian which aren't reported at all! which is a problem, as the only way to get the message out, any real change appears to be death! as you have no respect for the people at all.
you only work with slaves, and well your guns, and your threats are wearing thin! as i have no respect for any of you anymore
none of you want to admit your government is crap and failing th epeople at all. which is why i think the people have no choice but to blow something up, to get peoples attention/change in the next life
as i do believe in reincarnation here. and i think sucide bombing is the only way which gets things moved on quick enough so some lives may be spared, get better the next time around. hoping its all moved on when you jump into another body assumgin gyour stupid/guilable enough to come back to this planet or this s**ty game. [yes you can prove the other side, and come to your own conclusions here, if you can be arsed - i.e. pull your finger out and come to your own f**king conclusions for once, rather then regurgitating the morons who came before, as it so doesn't work like that at all]
as you lot stick your heads in the sand/try and keep the status quo and well fuck people over, ebcause you think your majority and your guns gives you the right
its power gone mad
i have no respect for any of your governments, and if the pope wishes to sign his lands and his church over to me, i will accept that offer now, do it quick before I change my mind.
failing that - stop dicking around, as i want you all at a peace table now
as your going to accept the many do not rule the one, that we are not slaves, and that any number of people can break away and take the land they own (live in) and form a seperate state. call it opt in goverment if you will, call it a state, call it a council i don't friging care, but you cant force people like cattle into governments they dont like, your court system sucks! and well we want out own here!
and yeah - i reserve the right to defend myself with lethal force, and if you dont like it you can kiss me ass.
and a psychic image the other day. had the image of a black man, and a white man in the 69. with the yon yang symbol behind them. i agree its a faboulous idea. and someone needs to take that phot, and turn it into a symbol of euqlity/peace and the promotion of gay rights. yes it fucks over uganda (another perk) as really they are being pricks as well as no government, or religion has the right to dictate what is right.
it goes to consent, it goes to freewill and that image came from the god portion of my mind!
now - you have a choice you can either play ball - or i release my stuff to the people,(bypassing government) and causing another blood bath (on top of the existing ones) for the next two thousand years.frankly i dont care, the only thing keeping me in this reality is the fact suicide hurts! as i know its fake.
i also know i'm the antichrist, and while i haven't written this up/proof read it. the message isnt going to change, and yes spirit are trying it on.
admitedly the entir eplan probably resides on do i have the balls, to stick it out! ignore government and threats of prision/loosingmy stuff and other things.
the irony is if britian locks me up. it will cost them £50k a year to have me locked up, which will stop me working on this site, trying to bring money in (money which could have been taxed) and well will come in blood. as i guarentee people will die, if i go down! nothing personal but we've been here before
personaly i think they will fuck it up, and well prophacies of nuclear wars aside, and me having more hits then obama on the nostrodamus thing, i no longer care, and want an out!
preferably one with cash. so you would be advised to pay me off now. as im more into pleasure, and well vanishing now.
something tells me, i either kill myself or sit it out and spark of this chain reaction which has probably gone too far, and well is already a powder ceg waiting to blow. shit happens, and yes spirit is on my side. (or was) i remember joan of arc and how she got screwed, so i'm rather cautious there, and yes... you lot are bugging the crap out of me now
and yeah someones really going to have to read between the lines, as i'm already doing plot dumps to other wood me nuns, and yeah the knowlege is out! so like it or lump it, your going to accept those terms (or wait till more people die) eitherway it happens, as you forgot the mostimportant law of all. the many do not rule the one, demcoracy only works when the people agree, and well i no longer agree to your parliment and your law, so yeah go and fuck yourselfs (politely of course)
[does this fit the bill of arogance? or not- personally i think im being nice, but perhaps its not writing it up properly, fuck it who cares. kill people, dont kill people, your wasting my time. now sign that fucking peace agreement. or if i get my way. your going to pay! depending on whos running the show/impulses which are going into people/dictating their lives *cough* not going into that here. see the predestinationf/freewill vid for more. you have been warned!
and yes those people who have elected a government are responsible for it. i.e. if you let their law stand you take the blame. and if you dont like it. declare independence and form your own seperate state. citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights, or form your own bloody church, as i don't frigging care at this moment in time
as the only thing i care about now is freedom and preserving that for as many as possible, if anyone wants to side with me, help me build that government and are willing to subscribe to the notion of equality, justice for all. (think round table/camelot) geography need not be an issue here, then by all means join me in the devils name, as my banner is raised
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1/23/2010
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i was getting images of red flags, and ok cupid appear to have added them on their photos. that kind of makes more sense now (perhaps something i need to do) mais c'est la vive, i got blind date images once before another site added that lot there. does it change anything though? is it the image, or is it the idea *sigh* anyway I percervere regardless, and perhaps need to update my site. but it perhaps changes nothing cash wise now.
women tried to get me to strip last night on msn, half way down. i ask her to join my site before i go the full way/get my c*ck out, but she doesn't join... and thats all she had to do (its free) so yeah you can't give it away now!
a few other random conversations, and another sign up. brings me to 10 in two months, twice as long as the previous 10. added a few more things, like security opening the images up. as i needed to show my vids. but i've not expanded it to allow anyone to upload yet, as i have no space and already running into issues with hosting at times. i need a cash injection bad or i'm going to be forced into this antichrist idea, and that is bad - from a purely political/random facing the hordes perspective, but i see little option for light, unless someone pays me for something soon.
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1/22/2010
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gothiclight
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problem: started adding paranomral researchers on myspace (this women has loads on). spirit went crazy/calling me all sorts of thing. had to concentrate to stay focused. then i found this one guy (who added me before) and who wrote about that type of thng. i.e the reason he got into paranormal research. was something showed up/was bullying him.
now the thing was. i clicked on his name, and found he had removed me and blocked me. and the spirit went quiet. it backed off and i fely very relaxed. anoying thing is i can't remember if i emailed him with my story. or if i put it off. i think i forgot to do it. and can't do it now.
and its silly - but I may have messed up there, as i know whats going on (sort of) and now he will never now! lol
now really bemused now, as its answered some other stuff as usually its my ex's who block me like that. *sigh* as i will speak to anyone usually
writting long emails/filling people in/corrtecting them however tend to be more awkward said then done. at least i don't think i emailed him at the time.
arse gonna have to check that now
EDIT: nope didn't email him with the story. oooooooooooops
seems i can't win - as the more i tell the truth, the more far fetched my stuff sounds. as i try and pass anything on as accuratly as possibly. which is perhaps anoying as i look like a fool most of the time. just get blank looks. (actually most of the time i get a hit) but thats beside the point. perhaps he did't like the satanist side? either way hes an idiot (or i am) for not passing information on, as i thought about emailing him. then put it off as it was going to be a really long email and he was being extrordinaryly open on his profile. so i'm woundering if its another set up. i.e. the reason he got into paranormal investigations was because of the bullying. desperate to find out what it was. and that add/block/removal and that display prior to running into him again. has kind of given me even more evidenc. and now i'm anoyed. (differnt reason) previous images of auras from awhile back and some sneaky suspcians about a certain other dream - whih i don't think they can or will pull off!
so yes i guess i'm an aquired taste after all. mwah, ha, ha! with an evil laugh (not really) but this is getting silly now
as that spiritual bullying (was f**king lots) and if he got a lot off it. i think it went on awhile - remembering the profile - he has my sympathy as trying to concentrate for 10 mins/ignore it. was anoying as hell!!! unless he did something to deseve it (racism) in which case i have no sympathy at all. but i am curious if you can get spirit to do that to anyone now.
as really if they can do that to anyone, at anytime. you could really f**k someone over - if they were driving or something like that. show up wrong moment, bang your dead (assuming youve not seen it before) actually even if you had, the distraction would perhaps equate to the time one of my ex's stook her hand down my pants. started jearking me off at night. as that amount of concentration is perhaps what you need to stay focused on the road/with that kind of thing going off. i.e. if your not expecting it/wrong moment - your dead. as i reflect on egyptian curses and how they work. never tried a curse (always woried about the kama aspect) but yeah... interesting now.
i assume its part of the script/rigged but i could be wrong on that!
as really it was impressive as hell. shouldn't laugh. spirit bullied me this morning (which got me out of bed) and doing a video.
or rather the video on freewill/predest was my choice. after hearing a lot of spirit/enacting out/passing stuff out
. to make me relate back one point (for the moving on sensation) which related back to the peace process. and how it f**ked up or rather one of the ways it f**ks up - and yes its very anal, but ita is getting silly now! actually the peace process perhaps is as well, but i was talking about spirit then and i get ambigious a lot of the time (perhaps too clever?) i never proof read these entries *Sigh*
(i.e. they were rally making their precence known) and well if they hadn't have been so forceful. i wouldn't have got up/recorded the bloody thing as i was anoyed, which is why. and most likely/would have relaxed meditated. read my mail. then i would have been too bloody anoyed to make the video at all.
which means if rand wants to prove spirit. i think i can now (god willing) as their is multiple ways we could set it up, assuming he were to agree.
peace and quiet here now, more evidence and yet bemused as i don't think hes figured out whats going on yet - either that. or some people can't handle the idea of satan at all?
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and for those curious how i was adding people today (another coincidence) the friend was one of the 8 who sowed. and it so happened to be the one who has all the paranloraml people on. i have around 4760 friends. and when i log in. it shows 8. and well i clicked on one without looking to add. which is when it started. as she had 2000+ friends and didn't move off her. not that its relvent. but the coincience of the topic in relation to this mornings effort is perhaps high as well. but you might be reading into that (or i would) but i do seem to have theme days at time. and well it really is pot luck! with the people you get.
i.e. most of the last few days have been the "holoywood" crowd - the posers if you get my drift. anyway. i'm just looking to boost sales here, before the end. not sure why - but i suppose every little helps in its way.
anyway - i do try and be open and honest when i pass stuff on, but yeah - i will phrase it to suit my political agenda/antichrist for president/devil on top and sometimes i am not in a mood to pull my punches at all. however with the psychic side/information/auras/dreams i always try and go into the detail of what i saw. however a lot of the earlier babtism of fire stuff makes you look insane. which is why its rarelly used. went into theology (split minds) and yes... i am concious of films. but i wouldn't believe it. unless that one dream sequence (timeline) happens. which involves my death. (and me conciously taking control) opening the body bag. coming back. lucid dream i had once. i may have wrote about it in the precognative dream bit. as i thought it had happened. i.e. it was metaphorical. as i wrote it up. because of the concious mental aspect on willing the zip to go down. before the rest of the dream happened. and it tied in with sian/generals/bright light. being told to keep down/and a few other things. but its so far fetched - and yet not! at times like this. as i know how it would work in practice. and that in itself. perhaps means. i'm screwed. as i think if i were to do anything stupid. i am in severer danger. of getting rumbled by the psychics/someone ive never met. who would most like report it. and it will be i should have been dead - but did't. touch and go. and that fits the prophacies as well.
i've been looking at them from obamas time. i hit my head when i turned my car over 6 years ago. my legal stances fit better then obammas, and to make matters worse. i think i known what the xxxx ones relates to. which means i'm scoring more hits then him. so yeah - i think i may be getting egotistical here, but
given the times spirits called me the antichrist and a few other things. if i was a betting men, had money to spare. i would stick a bet on me now!
as i can see how in thoery it would work (more for it to fail) and fail bit - but yes... too many experiences of the above is making me wounder here. mesiah complexes the work of zcrazies.
but come one. the many do not rule the one! parliment is not the law. i am not a slave - and having the balls to do it/follw it through (the ultimate renage/rebel) sort of fit me more then him.
i am also aware spirit screws you over. see joan of arc (and those dreams) she was burnt as a witch. so it wouldnt surprise me if their was more then one candidate and they are going to pick the best one! but yes... i yes i think i am the candiatate which is perhaps enough to rule me out (as it wouldn't surprise me if thats how it worked) i.e. i don't think i qualify for the peace process yet. as i would f**k it up! perhaps more then others, i could think of.
sorry guys, but given my life (and how its rapidly sounding more implausible then fiction here) and given my ability to spin anything/i am already ahead of cameron and the othe politicians here. i just don't hve the confidence or the ability to speak publically. i.e. i go to pieaces as i'm a crap speaker - and thats my achilies heal. and the only thing which makes me think its not me. i.e i do not move people, and i'm more likely to alientate everyone in the end!
please note: my tree of life stuff as well sticking devil on top. but yes i perhaps would need to do more live stuff (with people in the street) ala the other famous psychics, but yeah... i'm not sure if i take this life seriously now (or that idea) trust spirit/trust god? your having a laugh.
ergo i am hedging my bets, and thinking joan of arc/the system will screw me here and to think otherwise would make me a fool - which means i am not the antichrist, and thus ignore thisentire email write it up as fiction, even though its not and its my life. which is rapidly becoming a joke.
so yes the plot thickens, i would say 
toodle pip, i need a drink. as i seriously want to get laid tonight
(no life - and well if i'm goingto end up in a british prision - perhaps the most likely outcome of my stances, i may as well have some fun instead)
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this was made before the post showed up this morning, if i'd read that first. i probably wouldn't have been arsed to do that.
the video above is purely spiritual (conversation wise) and any communication in this world is purely incidential and irrelevent in the scheme of things. i.e. i no longer care about it at all!
judgement for a water bill (saying we have to pay it) as we didn't put a claim form in. i highlighted i didn't recognise their court system and it true. i have no respect for british law, and will not be bound by it. so i have no intention of paying it all, even if i could - which i can't. so its academic. and because i didn't have any respect for british law is why we didn't bother to explain the defence bit (they overcharged us) which is why we stopped paying it in the first instance (that and we were defaulting on all debt) and something had to give. there water meteres are wrong, and we know that for a fact.
and the other mail - is banks. threatening to cut off banking, and repayment of mortgages. which makes me assume that the 10k over payment is no up (which is odd) as at bank of england base rate which is why they said we were being charged at - it wouldn't have been up at all. but it is hsbc, and they are f**king us over again. we are in dispute with them over charges as well either way the entire thing is a joke. and we aren't in the mood to co-operate at all please remember if your in doubt of it its worth trying to force the issue/try anything at all. our views is now its not. because doing anything in this world is a waste of time. as only those who are signed off on, will get any reward. the rest will be screwed regardless. if you want to know why some people get "lucky" others fail. as their is no luck at it all. and those thinking its skill are purely delusional, as we know better here!
a game within a game indeed and this subtle context is perhaps lost/unexplainble beyond a select few (and is perhaps not covered in the video at all) we do not recognise the british government, and we never will again!
we were screwed over too many times previously, and well let us just say my origionald desire to work my arse off, do everything in life. being eager to please, sucking up to authority (being a swot) wanting qualifications is no gone. i did all the qualifications early in life, and well its a waste of time. and i've seen too much of the spiritual world to care about what any of the morons in this world care. their egos/and their power trips/and their slave hierarchy are of no concern of mine, i do not recognse their authority and never will again. and i'm sure you will never agreee. understand this and well thats not my problem, but yours! as i reflect on the future and what i'm going to do.
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1/21/2010
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really anoying. was in dsu drinking a coke (50p). and i saw this aura of a bike behind this bloke who was engrosed on a phone/pda/blackburry/ipod type of thing. and i saw the image of a bike on this thing as well (the aura of one) anyway had it on his mind as well. and i had to ask about this aura - as it was bugging the crap out of me
so after a while ooming and arring do i disturb him, i came out and asked. however their was no bike, it wasn't on his mind, and he wasn't writing about it at all. and to make matters worse. spiritual thought said it was a really big thing. but i had broken off the conversation at this point (hed gone back to his pda thingy) and well i wasn't going to ask again.
and to make matters worse - i started seeing auras of everyone else with bikes. and i wrote it off at that point, as a rwaste of time. heard the voice f**k as well inter alia
anyway he left, (tiny aura of bike behind him - it had shrunk as he left) and this rather attractive women. sat in his place. started drinking their alone, and i saw an aura of a bike behind her. and i contemplated using it as chat up line, but decided it was a waste of my time. as their was going to be nothing relevent there. though it may have worked to get her in a conversation as to be honest, asking a women that question is the same as asking a bloke, but i hate repeats. (shed have responded better to the aura perhaps) but its like, i am not goin to be one of these people. who keeps asking people about auras of bikes hoping for a hit/or a date (actually i really need to work out a good way, to break the ice with a women. as if i wait for an origional aura/something new - i'm probably screwed) admitedly i do go on instinct their, and yeah i was more interested in working out what the auras were. i suppose in theory. you could have more then one person with the same issue. but yeah waste of time!
so all in all - auras of bikes/asking about them. proved a waste of time
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1/20/2010
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due to the f**k up. with the strangulation idea. i.e. strangulation hurts. i thought i'd go one better and try aphxiation instead. wrote a note and everything. (which was essential a f**k you) to drop durham council in it with the balifs/demand for council tax. and a random remark on that comment about having to have a conversation with a women, to undo a thing i did in the past. to stop a nuclear war (which was years back now) which would be taken for a crack pot remark, unless i am the antichrist. as frankly my vote i war now...
and sitting in the dsu cafe. while trying to phrase coments for another vid/for a palastine peace talk changes nothing.
i was considering doing another on on auras. as i got another couple which were a few seconds ahead of events. people moving, and i perhaps need to account for symbalims more (didn't cover it in the last one) perhaps the time i was in the pub, saw the friends i know. thottling each other, when it all looked fine, things like that.
anyway. during this rehersal. of what i was going to put on it. i got this image of a block. going up. on my right shoulder. which instantly had me. trying to correct my words, trying to break it down. (had this aura image before) anyway - it soon came apparent it wasn't me at all. but the group of 7 students in the group behind me. as the image of the block being broken down. seemed to corospond to one of the women in the group. as she talked.
i think they were talking about one of their subjects/trying to explain it to the group. and it seemed to be going up. when she wasn't speaking, as she looked like one of those interesting moody types. anyway i spent the rest of the time. trying to study them. and i know she clocked me. (may have been a mistake on my part) as i got an image of a flag on theblock at one point. which i wasn't sure if that meant flag it up. got over and speak to them, but i didn't. (i don't like approaching people with auras - unless its something a> easy to explain, b> stands out, c> is origional as i hate repeats.
perhaps i've come too much a fly on the wall.
anyway she was perhaps too young for me (i'm getting old) but anyone with facial experssion/body language/the whisp of emotional under currents always did appeal. anyway i wrote auras off - as picked up f**k up!
the few second thing, was just the path somone was going to take, and the way someone moved their head, asit was getting a little close. had one on the way home theother night. similar thing. right side of the house. scisors/something else. and then a few seconds later. someone coming out the house. i.e. nothing impressive at all - but which perhaps gos someway to explaining why i was considering other videos in dsu.
anyway. i brough 10 meters of gafatape. and decided to try the sufocation by bag trick. as it would get around the issue of a curshed larynx that kind of pain. so i put one over my head and gafataped it up. however the problem with this. trying to do it fast/when woried about passing out. is it hits the rapid breathing thing. which is why you burst the bag to breath.
take 2> this isn't working. shouldn'thave lost it that quick. so got mre gafa tape. and sealed the hole. lets see if i can do it slowly this time without rushing it. after all if a f**king budhist monk can set fire to themselves, in protest of an illegal government occupation a satanic priest should be able to do the same with a bag.
so yeah. sealed it up. and used 10 meters of gafa. which resulted in some fast breathing, which calmed down. (head the voice - shallow breaths and i love you) and then to my anoyance. i find out that i'm not sufocating at all. because those bloody bags are somehow letting the air in.
this had me trying to put move my hand over it to find the hole. but i think its the plastic itself. (perhaps with the sweat) anyway i kept it on, till i learnt to control my breathing fine/as normal. as the temptation was for it to get fast at times. 2 hours later! i take it off.
the bag has "danger of sufercation" written on it - my arse! someone ought to sue them for misleading text. as the only risk i can see. is dying from a heart attack in panic at the thought of dying without air! [more politics - perhaps the right to die? campaign] as you can breath fine with them. (at least that one at least) which does raise the question. of how much oxygen you need to live. how quick does it circulate into an enclosed space, with a barrier in place. and how long in theory could you go underwater with it. as i was always crap at holding my breath. and i wounder, and i'm curious now - what the length of time is. you can go with breath in your lungs, it circulating. if you didn't have to worry about the automatic response of exhaling quickly. (seems psychological to me) as well as the need for rapid breathing.
and well someone ought to do more experimentaion their, as their is no high, with a bag over your head. did conider wanking just to say i'd done it, but yeah. a bag gafatapped over me head did nothing for me) other then make me more anoyed at certain spiritual comments, and the resulting set of images. i got later/this morning
grrrrrrrrrrrrr as this site isn't going anywhere. and their is no f**King way any of this works.
as i wouldn't trust myself anywhere near the peace process! assuming it was me - and it probably isn't
and i can't work out who the women is, the queen might make some sense. with the many do not rule the one comment, that prior dream of her coming to my table (with the steak on it) as it was those bastards which trained me to write the parlimentis not the law crap anyway. with aura image os arafat in the pub, and well passport control which moved on the decleration of independence citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights. and no we don't back donw. when we hit a certain point, as its gone too far. and suicide was suppose to prevent me from killing anyone.
as i don't think i have any choice but to kill british police/balifs if they try and ignore my decleration enter this land. and well the psychic side isn't really working, they never pass anything useful on. and i somehow don't see anyone in britian humouring me at all. which is theproblem, and why suicide seemed preferable. as i have no money here!
and i have sort of given my word, that i will die - before i surender this land. which means i have to do it. least i be made a lier/look weak... anyway this conversation, is perhaps not going to talk anyone into anything. so i guess i made the entire thing up/read into it. but changes nothing. as people are going to die here. if anyone invades this land. as like it or not... that is fact!
(killing oneself is always harder i figure in the end!)
perhaps i need an asp, cleopatra had an asp. does anyone have any spare?
as really i'm not taking this life seriously anymore. too many imags from the other side. this morning i got an orangotange inter aia. which i assume is a reference to this news story. http://news.bbc.co.uk/earth/hi/earth_news/newsid_8466000/8466488.stm which answered a previous question i had, when i mockenly inquired if they had any. which tried to resolve disputes. guess they do. they will be hell to live with in x thousand years. as they are going to pass on/learn everything we did. one wounders if we were first? or if the gods of old were the previous species (which came before?) perhaps someone reset the gameworld, or something else.
as their is proof of the other side (unless i'm insane) and it sucks
as i have written off the entire of britian as being stupid as hell. especilly after the previous story on gun sights!
which incidently seemed to match to another comment i had. which is why i hate spirit. they never come out and say it for real (at least with me) its always f**king cryptic remarks) which map back to stuff later on.
and i just wished they would f**King come out and say what the plan was. as i'm not making any money here.
yes i'm bored, yes i'm anoyed, and if britian breach these premisis, everyone dies (or something like that) as my position is weak, at this current time.
however saying that. i found out that someone on my facebook friends list. did the satanic sluts video from salvation. and playing the numbers (i saw an image of the whitehouse blow up) i actually think i can win this, given time... i.e. the speed of converstion/given club antichrist, the young and a few other things. means i take majority soon.
obviously i could have screwed that plan up - but anyone preaching christianity looses ten years from now.
[perhaps give/or take]
not that i want to be president and all, but i do wounder why obamma was thinking, when he was 32 and if he realisticlly thought he would make the nobel peace price or other things. as i got a dream of winning one once, another rediculous notion as i never did put together a cohesive universal thoery to explain this lot at all (and frankly i don't want to either) as its boring as hell.
so yeah - f**k britian, f**k american and f**k the rest of the world. as i am perhaps going to while my life out in prision for failing to pay my debts. at the hands of a hostile government. as they spends stupid amount of money (50k a year) stopping me make money at all. which just sums the politics up, as i', not making anything at all, and am in two minds about filing a tax return as well. technically its for the year before i declared independence, but i'm making a loss. and well i really can't be arsed. and i was hoping to be dead by then, so this thing is getting anoying now.
as i currently have no more plans for another attempt. unless anyone knows where i can get hold of a firearm/guilotene from?
seriously i need to defend my land and or/come up with something here. as its turning into a comedy of errors here, as i have no love of pain/misery (too much pleasure - perhaps the satanist in me) but yeah... *sigh* and this entry so isn't gooing to go down very well. but i need a remidner of what i did, in case they make a film (still hedging my bets here/eitherway) je suis gareth bowen et je suis veux etra president du europe peut-etra ?
random dream of parents/sister saying a name on a stage/getting a laught. as i start to analyse previous comment, but yeah - f**k it, i need a drink |
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gothiclight
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12:28 PM
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http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/8468981.stm
the words alone are enough for me to go - jesus is evil, you don't need it on gun sights to add to the fact!
John 8:12 reads: "When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, 'I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."
Which I think translated into follow me or die. sums christianity up in all its forms as jesus was, and is evil and so iseverything he stood for. misery and slavery. follow him and be saved, please come up! wake up and smell the roses and burn that book...
the other one appears to reference the glory of god, which is just as bad. as anything done for the "glory" of anything, generally translates to invasion/death/murder/conquest which again sums up christianity so why am i not surprised its on american/british guns...
EIDT (2 secs later) however the above story, does explain the "you've converted me to islam comment" i got this morning before getting up/reading the news story, so I should perhaps warn they are just as bad with their quotes (if not worse)
god is evil, the devil is good. embace pleasure, be yourself and try seducton instead. as more people are turned in the bed room, then in the battle field of war...
which is why i prefer my body as a weapon instead/or hair swishing - obviously i'm perhaps not as effective as sum in this measure, and i'm getting on. but some of the satanic sluts would probably do pretty will. open your mind, have some fun, relax, enjoy life and help us out....
*flutering eyelids, in temptation... for those who want it now* as i remember that profits better take care of their words, least they leave themselves exposed and full of holes.... (or have we covered that with the gun sights above?)
ooooooops gos is evil, the devil is good, telling you people. you really need to get off this religion lark!
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gothiclight
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5:09 PM
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looking back over my short lived legal career (glad i never came a lawyer) my regrets are thus:
1> when in court for a liability order with the magistrates. i should have ignored the magistrated. deliberatly turned my back on them, and argued it out with the man in the box.
as 1> i never did vote durham council in
2> i do not recognise the competance of the british judicery system
and 3> they only do what he tells them to anyway.
and 4> hes the one whos laughing and chatting with the prosection (durham council) before hand
so the entire thing is a complete was of time, as they will find the order against you regardless.
which means the only point of going down, other then to stick too fingers up at them/wind them up. as no ones around to witness it anyway.complte waste of time
and my other issue is ths:
when in the royal courts of justice (court 1) i should have objected when the secretary of state (his representative) was throwin out a case because no defence was thre. as this case should have bee heard. and the articulate pally/slimy way that the judge and the secretary of state worded it in cohession to make it look proper for it to be ignored made me puke!
- notwithstanding the other objection imissed when he argued democracy (16.2$ isn't and nver will be democracy and well the many never did and never willrule the one!!! which is another irony missed -
obviously i'm not a defence lawyer but this sucked.
secondly i have only just realised (being slow) that the reason the usher took my can of coke off me. was perhaps to stop me throwin it at the judge who sits two tiers up. (3 ushers on the lower tear in front) as this never occured to me hre.
thus i remind you all - you have two shoes. as if anything its perhaps worth a lifetime in prision (which will cost them £50k+ a year) to throw it at the judge - and get some strikes in!!! as really these bastards deserve to go down. and you have two there, ready and waiting if you use your brain!
in the meantime. i really would love to know. how many suicides in britian we get. as with a bit of co-ordination, i'm sure we could give them all guns, and move on parliment. in fact that bloke. they arrested/threw in prision for building an armory up. might be a perfect contact. after all if he knows how to make that stuff - perhaps he knows others as well. so perhaps i need (or someone else does) needs to do a site. where we can see whos coming up for parole/whos coming out. so we can stick our orders in for guns.
as frankly the co-ordination with that lot sucks, and i really think its time we had a revolution here!
as really i'm sick of the lot.
in the meantime i have decided that if i'm going to do it. i really need a guilatine, as its the only fool proof way i can think of killing myself without pain. i.e. decapitation in an instant. pity it wasn't revolutionary france. as you could sneak in the square and do it at night/when their not looking. though knowing my luck i'd probably win a revolution and be made king. which would suck. as the entire point of moving against parliment - is to be suicided by their superior military - and perhaps take a few scalps with you - in order to pay back the system for everything theydo/perhaps flag up change. which has got me thinking that if i ever did end up president.
i would have to make some statement. where i invited everyone to target me instead.i.e. if i was leader the buck stops with me, as i would prefer it if everyone who was going to hang themselves. picked up a gun, and came at me instead. as that way i would get to know what the issues were, as anything else is just censored and the system doesn't work. not that i could guarentee the effectiveness of the security forces putting a bullet in their heads so it was quick and painful. but it would perhaps be an easier way to go out, then hangging oneself. it would also come with the added bonus of winding other government up.
as the number of attempts would go down, themore people were happy. and thus it would be easy to see where you stand, and well rivial goverments (who are crap) would perhaps get more hits in turn, as the people were encouraged to voice their oppinion - which is why its a genious idea. to go on stage and invite people to do it!
this isn't helped i the spiritual ideas/communication si picked up earlir on today, and the day before either. as yesterday i got a lee harvy oswald comment. which made no sense at all - unless the bastards knew i was going to f**k it up! which wouldn't surprise me.
though what is even more confusing is the spiritual sensation glow. that the world is a better place now. after i voiced the logic train, as i hadn't even written it up yet. and many of those ideas didn't filter in. till i cleared the last lot out. as your mind moves on, and adjusts the plan....
as the only thing which is going to change now, is my rhetoric as i ham the idea up even more (i.e. i get worse) not better as far as voicing the words/building that idea. as its not going to go away at all. i.e. i think all leaders should be activly trying to get suicides to target them - with firepower. in order to flag up change.
random spiritual comment about security being doubled around obama. which bemused me. as i hadn't even written it up (decided to write a journal entry up them) and well i have nothing to live for/have a gob. am going to be forced into a situation where i ave to kill people to defend my land (though i suppose i do have some really cool ideas for my script) and yes...
how to win a rebellian in britian. as i keep trying to come up with ways of co-ordingating an attack on british soil. and i just can't stop thinking of plans/wargames/ways of trying to link prisioners up and i don't want to do any of them at all. as i'm a f**King pacafist and want to bring some money instead, but my mind keeps on constructing plans. and its really anoying. the problem of daydreaming i guess.
perhaps i need to write up the "demand it" system. as an add on to this site. where people get to demand people come and speak. as i can knock an imitation system up in no time. for any of the networks on the web. but it still doesn't solve my cash dilema at all.
*sigh* i need a business model that works - something which brings money in here.
either that or i need to find materials on zero cash. to build a guilatine that works, or get an AK47 so i can move on parliment/shoot durham council up. neither of which appeals - but i'm sick of playing waiting games here. and spirits not helping at all. which is mores the pity. as i don't trust that lot. with jumping off a building (cant think of one tall enough around here) as i wouldn't put it past them to break my fall. which is going to be anoying as hell. which brings me back to inni mini mo. try and work out how to build a guilatine, or code some more of my site and if so. which bits. (or write some more) which doesn't help anyone. as anything i think of now. is pretty much likely be directed at trying to co-ordinate/come up with plans at moving against parliment/the poice with force... which is just how my mind works i guess.
suppose i could try more porn, but its the law of deminishing returns, and well no quick solutions here at all, rather i can't think of anything which is going to work realisticly, other then death.
guess my life is one of those tragedies, though on the plus side. woen seemed to be positioning themselves, where i could look at them. went into dsu. and given a choice of seats. too many were moving from seats they had into a position so i had no choice but to look at them - with some eye contact and smiles from some. but alas i am so out of touch - i am out of the game and am probably reading into things again.
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gothiclight
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i am hung over, and no have a new found respect for anyone who actually managed to top themselves sucesfully.
the theory is easy. get two bottles of wine. get pissed out of your head to dull the pain. then punge a sword in your belly ala the samuri do. however you still need thrust. i.e. your going to need to break the skin. which means. your stood with an up down motion, and your brain is obviously thinking. this is going to hurt! because you know a blade going into your stomach is going to hurth like f**k
as you pull the blow last min, with the point going into the left of you, not breaking the skin at all. see - you need a lot of thrust to kill yourself and you can't break off - which means, you have to have no doubt in your mind whatso ever... so yes back to the pain, two bottles of wine down and this is going to hurt. you know its going to hurt and well this plan sucks.
how about plan b, always good to have a backup plan as your mind rapidly thinks of a solution to correct the problem of pain. get a lot of flags out the cuboard tie them togethr into a rope. after all that was the origional plan, written up many moons ago. so you do that and tie it over the banister. easy done in a house like this. and well a noose is easy. as i check the nots, go yes that will hold (i think) as you stick the noose over it. and then oach.... it f**King hurts on the larynx. you get a searing pain. up into your skull as the wind pipe gets crushed. and i haven't even tried to jump off the step.
yet. so yeah like anyones going to be stupid enough to do that. with 10-15 mins of that pain, oach.
so yeah I am left with a dilema. if i am unable to suicide i am going to have to kill someone instead. so heres my s**t list:
anyone in the police
all judges all court staff/including judges
all politicians
and anyone who works in the nhs
and all balifs/debt collectors as well
and anyone in social sevices
i figure killing any of those would be a service to humanity and move the issue on.
However killing someone in theory and in practice are too different things, but i figure if any of those come anywhere near me/invade my house. the theory of snapping their neck instead of my own. is easier. now i have the pain to think back on. and if anything may make an interesting science experiment if nothing else!
after all it doesn't look that hard in the films, and i vaguly remember my ju-jitsu training of how the neck breaks. and well some of those deserve to die. so i guess i'm going to have to do the suicide by cop method, if anyone breaks in here as i refuse to surender here anything.
meanwhile. the 15.46 i spent on two bottles of wine, a twilight dvd, turkish delight (for a last meal) sucks as my budget is gone and i'm not making any money here. so i am tempted to charge that to durham council as i rally don't want to kill anyone here. which is why i thought i'd try suicide instead. unfortunatly my mind keeps playing strategy. and it seems easier to try and talk and start trying to get all other suicides to target the above list instead. as then we might get change.
this is perhaps going to be very controversal, and well i have no issue with either of the woods (labout mp) and the lib dem counciler (the opposition) dying here. as i can't stand either of the women at all.
and it seems funny know, but it isn't. as i'm stuck in this crappy world, out numbered, and outgunned with a whole host of political issues coming my way.
i suppose i should stick the lords on the above list as well, as i'm sure if i meet any of them. they will be anoying as hell. the military i think save lives, but it depends on your point of view andthe nhs tend to get on my nerves. now i have to figure out how to make some money here!
as their is nothing in social networking at all
which is an arse - as i don't want to work for anyone either. so i need a better plan. suggestions welcome here
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gothiclight
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3:22 AM
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wathing twilight for the 2ndtime.
its odd but if you turn your head on the side. you can start watchingg it dbouled up. i.e. everyone has 4 eyes
turn your head right way up. it goes back to normanl again.
however if you in a position where its 4 eyes - it stays like that. and likewise moving your head normaly/back into the d position can loose it. i.e. you brain remembers whats fixed in front of you.
one of those optical illusion you decide to comment oi after 2 bottles of wine... as you chooose your vision inter alia
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