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3/12/2010
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gothiclight
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4:10 PM
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yesterday i stopped to meditate, and i got somethig similar to hearing the music which i did when i first started the occult.
back then it was "let me entertain you" as it guided me into a meditation, which revealed some things, however yesterday it wasn't music at all, but the voices shifting location.
started off in my head pretty much "flippin on this" backtracking on that. and it moves from my head/suround to my right ear. and it started to sound like a radio signal like over hearing conversation, and when it shifted it moved away from head and it felt like calm. and the voices continued like me picking up a radio broadcast overhearing a conversation with my right ear.
now the cynics will go was their a radio on? or a coversaton near by. and i will go no - it was artifical but rather then vibration it was crystal clear. or rather the conversation wasn't it was too faint was, but the sound was. i.e you could make out the voices but it was the way it shifted from the rest of my head/surounding and is mre evidence to the fakeness of this reality.
by this relity i mean the phsyical world. as it was rather like one of the astral projection exersises where you feel youself getting lifted out of your body with the illusion of movement, the sensation of being dropped with no movement at all! when getting scripted convertion of what people are doing at work. which was the time, i emailed someone at work to see if it was correct, and they wrote bak saying i didn't need the psychic lessons anymore. as i was right.
anyway this reality is crap, oi have no money, and i hate the spiritual side as it leaves you broke. meditating on the bed teaches you nothing, you get no work done, and wel i'm broke!
as i don't even have enough to write up to make a lesson yet.
and the very idea of trying to talk about it publically is insane, as the entire population is stupid as hell! they are all morons, and nothing gets done, and i'm still broke! as i look at if its worth writting the news, and it probably isn't ad my firends count on myspace is only 10,667 i'm miles behind obama, sanaz and the others of that ilk. and i see no way of turning it around unless, i walk on water - which i don't thinks going to happen anytime soon.
so yeah this reality sucks, though i am going to persist until i loose power, at which point if i still have csh for food i will drag that out. at which point i will most likely switch to meditation again, and go into a coma when the food runs out and die. alternativly i gof**k it, try and find some explosives and blow something up, but i'll probaby go with the meditation as i'm lasy as hell, and well nothing seems to change anything so why bother at all!
in the meantime i'm not speaking to anyone at all, and will contine as planned, even though its a waste of time as i'm curious how far i can get it before the end, as i didn't think the overdraft i had would have lasted this long! but it did c'est la vive
in the meantime i will reiterate previous comments:
i declred independence citing article 15,17 of the united nations decleration of human rights, i do not recognise the british legal system or their juristicion at all! parliment is not the law, and neither is durham council, the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave. and you can all go to hell! as i have no respect for any of you here
if obama, metal sanaz, augn ssan suu kyi,the un, the pope or the dali lama wish to speak to me then, i suggest you sign up on the site -as i am no longer accepting calls! (only donations) now, anyone else is bound to anoy though most women just wanting sex will probably be ok as well.
durham police, durham council, labour politicans, the nhs, and any "doctor" is more lkely to get s really they have no place in this relaity at all! i do not recognise their qualifications and i never will, as i will only speak to peopl with a brain! strictly speaking the pope doesn't qualify but he has a following, probably doesn't shout and i might be able to knock some sense into him before i go.
that probably counts for the dali lama as well a- they both are crap at the end of the day (my subjective oppinion) and i'm sure the people will make their own mind up now.
not that i care, as the many don't rule the one and ive declared independence here/made my mind up and the site is it - for now, till the end of days! which probably won't be that far off - no income - at current rates.
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3/7/2010
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gothiclight
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8:57 PM
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i'm looking for media to embed in thist story
http://www.thesextree.co.uk/sextree/Newspaper/artical.aspx?n=1&articalId=209 after i've made it live for multiple reasons.
1 hearing the voices say "flipping on a story", gets anoying after awhile when i got an aura image of obama, and a knife going int my back. and its weird to explain. as this happened shortly before adding a cbs clip in. and i got it again - and the stoy moves onto knifes going into peoples back/coming out and it was just one of those incidents which made me stop and pause. as you get nothing all day - then you pick up a set of auras and a phrase which comes right on the back of it... bit like being shown an image of a storm in a tea cup before a news story is posted a day later using the line. but i digress and its perhaps a waste of time, showing balance here.
as i already know "its spirit" and this reality is rigged, so why write about it? as it changes nothing here, no cash! no money, and well screwed i guess as i reflect if i need to spin my journal, say nothing, say everything? and does it matter at all
probably not - as i get paid nothing at all!
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3/6/2010
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gothiclight
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5:39 PM
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"some of the voices said i was the antichrst, but i remember what happened to joan of arc, so i don't take anything on faith anymore!" is perhaps the saying of the day. as i no longer know what i know anymore. what works, what doesnt? i'm not sure...
though for some reason, i always quote myself. is that because everyones crap? - or i that because my egos too big to consider anyone else now? or do I just like to play on words
Someone raised a point on astral projection, which caused me to remember/spout some stuff off as i pause for thought - and go what do i know rally. if i stop and put it all together again.
i keep geting "be careful what you wish for" repeated over and over in my head - the voices, which are definitly not me! - and its anoying me now!
As is a lot of other stuff as well! as really i just want the money, and a nice women i can have sex with now and then, ok perhaps all the time. someone of like mind and well the rest is crap. though i do appear to be tryin to beat obama and metal sanaz, on numbers now, and there is this anothing thing of when you think of an idea - you can't shake it! and its like once you come up with a plan, do you have to do it in the end?
Decided I really need to do a video of the legal system, with a drawing of a women in the background.
freewill v consent [the breasts] as you find balance in the middle - once you explore the depths - [camera panning down] with word play as you look to make both sides happy again. don't miss any of the points!!! as that would be slop and bad, attention to detail is key as their is no middle piller [cue tree of life] its all give and take as the snake zigs back and forth on the tree of life. til you hit that eureka moment! (lovers VI] pleasure, and balance again. the rest is illusion and crap.
as you learn to diferentiate between intent/mood and the people invovled as you focus once again [cue the place i really want to be focusing my tongue at] as you sum it up again - for the crowd go wild, because your so good at the law, word play, and the use of your tongue. perhaps more practice here?
parliment is not the law, i am not a slave, the many don't rule the one and your rules are s**t. case law is mearly the argument of precident and their is no guarentee they argued it fair, as you look to seperate, jusify your point! [cue breasts again]
why did they bother writing anything down? really come on! its crap! you assume those views forced through parliment - are actually valid they are not - as you have compleaty forgotton the point of the law! balance and fairness and unelected majorites are not fair, and wel i signed up to none of this.
so why the hell is parliment, and the court system arguing demorecacy at alL! i did not sign up to those laws - and its akin to 7 women voting to rape a bloke. (see what i did there, i reversed the sexes and the argument as well) and i refuse to be bound by it. as no majority can impose thei will on a minority in an effort to change the law!
their remit was - and only is, if memory serves the spending of money to improve lives.
I am not slave, we the peple give money to government because we want to! and you assume too much when you think its your right! as we only sgn up if we agree with your aims!! (hint, hint) i do not agree with your your slavery, or your fear wich is why i renounced independence/formation of a seprate state to begin with.
yes i got pissed off with the illegaly break in - for being a witch! and actually sat down and thought about the law! rather then trying to regurgitate what i was told.
I will not grovel to morons in the hope i will be recognised as evil dwels there.
anyway cut a long story short - your probably know this by now - I find your entire goverment in contempt of the law, ultra vire and well i'm one of thos religious morons who doesn't now when to duck out, bow to pressure/force of arms - so your really in the s**t now! or i am! as i starve to death - mais c'est la vive, je devine...
I no longer recognise british law i find it ulta vires, you can't say "something can't be argued", or "its a democracy" as though it means something, as the fact they are in court arguing means their is an issue at stake! which is why it needs sorting out.
what ever happened to monarchy and common sense? whos king now!
The law is crap of late, no one bothers to explain anything anymore, and it seems more an exersise in trying to throw things out/ignore it - thob people off as the pigs in parliment walk! get rich while the people starve and die. not that it matters i suppose.
like one man (or women?) can change anything at all.
as i try and think what helps? what will bring the money in again?
your all image, theres no substance at all! its all crap.
your too preocpied will polls, and scared of what the "majority" will think as you safeguard your own positions. your not arguing the law - your aguing politics and that is wrong. as politics has never had anything to do with freewill and consent - ever. its more slavery, greed, power and morons then anything else. notwithstanding some are more well intentined then others at times.
Thus i no longer think that I - a mere mortal - have any respect for any of the religions/governments on earth anymore and will igore them accordigly till the end of days.
and while we've done with arguing down below, up above, i shall now move on and consider up above, down below as they are doing my head in as well. as i'm sure they can turn the rules off, adopt it so no one gets killed at any time. as i'm sure their is enough cases on record now o them breaking/bening the rules at will
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suffering is not, and has never been fun! and pleasure is the only good thing in life! and anyone not looking to bring pleasure to peoples lives,has soly missed the point.
ergo i vote, that this patheric reality/existence called life be turned off! so we can do something fun instead (this is addressed up above, not down below where all my attention was previously addressed as theres probably no point writting this bit down, as they can hear me fine without it inter alia) as really i've had enough of this being broke crap
j'ai besoin plus d'argent ici maintentant s'il vous plait
so i can get back to whats important in life. seduction, temptation and focusing on women again.
i'm easy here, one or many - i don't really care, but your cutting it fine.
and i need money now
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3/3/2010
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gothiclight
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2:54 PM
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especialy when your the weaker side, as it stops you focusing on productive things like work. baliefs buzzing me outside, blasting steros to try and get your attention. its not load, just enough to get people to look, to see whats going on outside.
i do not recognise thebritish government here, we declared indepencence citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights, we didn't have the money to pay you stinking tax - which is worse then ship money - even if we had signed up to it, as you should have been paying us benefit only you didn't because your all a bunch of racist twats who would prefer to illegaly break into people homes because of their belief set. your worse then natzis with the t-4 wards of old.
no f**k off, and pester some other mug, as we will defend the land to the death from your kind!
further to which your court system is ultra vires, and a joke parliment is not the law, they never have not been the law. as that goes to freewill/consent and i do not consent to your government at all! your democracy does not have the right to vote our freedom away.
so shove it up your arse as the many do not rule the one, and i am not a slave! and we will die before we surdender to you. all we care about is tryig to give the tools to the people, to write the news! as we try and get this international site - which you wanted to stop/censor - off the ground.
not that it matters, as youd rather waste millions on the bbc mais c'est la vive, je devine...
donations welcome here as we try and focus on work.
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2/25/2010
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gothiclight
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10:03 PM
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and that million doller question beside. as i actually stopped to pase about some things.
the comment like the hat trick put me off, as it brought back memories of ealier things, like whats the hat trick for one.
and well went to lie down, and the train thought clicked in again! as i had a dream earlier in the week, morning of 18th if my notes were correct - where i got up early! last time i had a bottle of wine. anyway i woke up, went into the other room, stepped over a train set. and then someone woke up and said it was the antichrist, after waking up to it. now the thing is i may have been lax here. as i got an aura in my living room inter alia of a train the day before the hsbc story broke/i noticed it. and the thing with trains, i thought it was "training or something else" anyway i didn't write about the hsbc story, as we're not on the best of terms. and so i stepped over it! and i hate writting about stories late. the problem is i only just relised that tonight about 10 mins ago.
which presents a problem, as i am no under the assumption its was precognative dream from a week ago, and if that was half way through the dream, then i am assuming another week for them to wake up. which no has me preplaxed, as on the one hand i want to go back to writting news stories again - in headless chicken mode. and the other has me wanting to go to meditate again.
the problem with meditation is - i can loose a day, and get nowhere. as i'm not sure if i need to plan this out, or just do it. and hope it falls into place. as a lot of the other stuff from earlier on, sort of implies i hve no idea - but they do. as i am getting awfully lucky of timings of late. obviously it won't be enough, as my plan is f**ked and well kind of relies on everyone else bailing me out! i.e. in an ideal world i play the fool - and it just works! as that would be grand. obviously this is my ego speakng now.
as i am half in a mood to just go out, and well be random again. why save money or drag it out, as it almost seems as though _they_ know what i'm going to do anyway even if i'm fighting it. trying to force it through, and well aything i've dones failed. so it wouldn't surprise me. if going outside sitting on a bench/doing nothing would deliver more - as i'm in one of those hmmmmmmmm moods with spirit again.
after all - who else is stupid enough to try and pull prophacy off? with a multimillion doller internet site to spare (bids welcome) other then, meah who cares. as i suspect writting more screwed me, as well as doing nothing as well. as my plans suck! as too many people think small, as i want to do it all in one move.
draft image, of leap frogging stuff was one of the earlier things which came to mind. but knowing my luck mentoning it,spoils the fun/invalidates it - and yet saying nothing, misses the oportunity, so which one works? do nothing, say everything and prey, and a dr who - walkig through the pendalum/hoping the timing works nd you don't get cut to ribbons the other end. one shot deal save the day, walk into the sunset wth an orangotang in toe? or has that plot been done now? i forget...
(perhaps too much silent bob, and jay there) as i can't talk about my life, and have it taken serously anymore... as its just gone *bang* as i reflect on dominoes again, and other games wich is where it get anoying.
as i had no idea what the train set was, a week ago, now i do! and the problem is i did wounder about writig it up, and now i've recalled the voice. part of me is relaxed as well spirit/or who ever it was tknew about it. i.e. i was predictable and thats what anoys me. as i hate dreams whichmake no sense, then a few weeks later do. nearly as much as the images/dream you get/walk into later - and go arse. as you never know whats in play! i.e. has it passed, or is it still going and does it really matter what do next? one would like to hope my actions/views decision matter -but at times you can' help woundering that no matter what you do your going to be screwed as youwatch the peson who does nothing get the lot, while others who do everything fail! and i hate object lessons like that - as whats the point?
do nothing, and regret it or do everything and realise you didnt need to do anything at all, because you were covered and a waste of time? which is worse. doing noting and wishing you had, or doing something,and going should have gone to the pub instead! as i'm sure civilisation matters somewhere down the line!
prhaps porn would have been better in the end, not that it matters as you don't seem to be able to get anyone to do anything at all mais c'est la vive, je devine...
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gothiclight
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3:17 PM
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As the other day, there was a really load noise outside. and it was a fire engine parke outside in the road just going about its business, cleaning its stuff and well I ignore it. i nearly went outside to go "press" what you doing here, but they just seemed to be cleaning the engine off/stuff like that. so i left them to it! didn't even take a picture or anything.
now if i were a suspcious man, i might link it back to the council and my inability to pay said tax. after all i think durham council is a waste of space, and well the police tend to remain high profile when they are illegaly breaking into things, and yet people who are actually doing their jobs, well tend to fade in the background. obviously the engine running is distracting as hell as i like the quiet, but still...
what do they do again? should i have gone out, and asked if they had any stories to tell, i.e. how many lives do they save and sold them on my site? or is that trying to cash in on human suffering and greed, after all they might be well placed to highlight stuff in durham, and what with me trying to write the news at all - they might be able to sell themselves, but i may have missed the point, and waisted an opportunity there. notwithstanding i no longer recognise british law, compleatly declared independece citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights, and well yes, better leave them to their job i guess.
From a cynical perspective one could perhaps ask how much money do they save putting fires out? i.e. what would happen if they didn't show up at all? as id be curious of what evidence they have - but that would be more trying to get a good story out of them, as i haven't really looked at them at all. ok the idea of the "passion killers" might make a good drama, with the hopeless romantic trying to ignite the spark of love in an ex, compared to putting fires out all day, but it might have limited appeal? then again depends how good the scripts were, i guess! (better then mine, i hope)
and well do they even need to be funded from the concil at all - as council tax is one of those taxes which causes more trouble then its worth. as either you have money coming in i.e. an income or profit or nothing at all - and well the implementation of "benefit" in britian is well crap!
anyway the entire thing is perhaps none of my business, as if they have a storey to tell - they can write it themselves! as theirs a limit to how many i write in a day! just as long as they don't break any laws doing it mind. as i have enough issue with the police/social services/nhs/duham council/their incompetant law system as is inter alia! and i'm anoyed that hot argentinan president - Cristina Fernández de Kirchner - hasn't got one of thoe contact forms the whitehouse has, as my spanish sucks! and its like how do you get through to a leader instead?
make no mistake britan - we defend our land to the death! and i don't care how many of you there are, or what warrents you have! as this is my land, and i aim to keep it like that - to death do us part! if you get my drift (that may be too subtle? for britian and durham council - i'm not sure yet. as it would be unfortunate if i had to kill any of you in defence of my land! *fluttering eyelids* and really i need to figure out, how to get through to a world leader one of these days...
which is perhaps on todays todo list if i leave stories alone.
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gothiclight
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9:55 AM
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Funny old world - you reassert your independence and change the country to "independent state" and next thing you know, your getting emaile saying new culture detected "uk" and to my knowlege it wasn't one at all. which is a worry - as its begs the question to the source?
coincidence is too much, so should I be woried now? should i ignore it, and hope it goes away? or should i write the news, in the hope it buys me time to investigate more, as this isn't working at all. too much on trust, and yet *sigh* je besoin plus d'argent ici maintenant, s'ilvous plais - how come greee gets 25 billion and we get none? ok their bigger then us, but better hosting would be nice, as i reflect on what to do today, and what to write next and just what is the process for joining the un? not that its helping argeninta much, perhaps... |
2/24/2010
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gothiclight
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11:42 PM
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resulted in less stories today. i was also distracted by the post as well. i ignored a call from hsbc as I don't want to pick up the phone speak to them at all.
why? because last time i did - they cut the overdraft on me, with no notice - leaving me with just £20 in my wallet for 2 weeks, plus the bank charges as well for going over said overdraft which they cut. so i am trying to drag it out as long as posible, to buy me time here! not that it will work as i don't trust the banks at all.
I also asked obamma to recognise our independence. after sending a message to the whitehouse on their contact form. though i think i would do better with argentia/some of other other nations better
http://news.thesextree.co.uk?story=152 american has an easy contact form, argentina does not. and i am scepticle how many messages get read that. which has me woundering how you get the contacts needed with leaders, to actually form coalition against evil inter alia! as really i have no idea, s we're hopting the news bit will work instead, as i need to master the other as well! first perhaps. or does mastering that, lead to the other one, as there appears to be two worlds, those on the news wire, and those off it. and i don't think we've broken through - yet!
as i reflect on voices past, my progression and the antichrist again!
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2/20/2010
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gothiclight
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12:41 AM
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first they quote brown saying he was going to "stand for the many" almost as though they are bating me after my standing as one against many line. then they change it to a future fair for all. which shows me where their vote is there.
frankly i don't think slave labour now what faireness is. as they have systomatially screwed over the people at every turn as they get rich off them instead. and what with them still overspending by 175+ billion a year its doing my head in - or would, if i actually cared. as you can't run a country lke that. news flash you do not have the funds to go spending more, and someone needs to wake up and smell reality. and tell people they have less to be going on with now. as your just screwing over one lot of people to help another as we should all feel the recession together. which means you really need to cut those budgets now! i.e. immediatly, as the money isn't thre.
unless your going to go on the record, and admit that britian is never going to pay any of its debt back! ever as the american do. why anyone invests in that debt is beyond me - and if anyone thinks i'm going to pay any of mine back after the harising calls -driving me to suicide you have another thing coming! as that action should be a criminal face. as no one is investing in business and the idea. and your just throwing it away in enless burcracy, and people - the nhs -who have no respect for money, time or anyone and it just sucks. as youd be amased what you can live on - when your forced into it. feel my pain loose your budgets now! which is wat youshould have done years ago - but like all things, brown talked about tighteing his belt, and expanded the waist line instead*
*i mean that from the expense scandle point of view as i have no idea if he lost weight, pu weight on- or what he spent his money on during thd recession! not that it matters here. as we formed a seperate state, and well money is tight! as per usual no income, and yes... how did anyone make money again? perhaps i should have sold out - like blair - and done the catholic thing, as thats the only way to make money in duham, going from some sources here. but alas i stuck to principle, human rights and principle and was austrocised for it.
paris was worth a mass, but the devils worth the world - and we suffer in art XIV as theres no balance there, with slave labour - or the other parties - at all.
i thought the precognativie dream had happened with the women, but in hindsight she was lone, and not with a friend, so it might still be in play - or its all invalid anyway - i.e. gysis are full of s**t and only an idiot would belive, read or trust the psychic side. which leaves me at an impass - what to do next, as far as freedom/money go. perhaps i should have brought a plane, like other software engineers but it would prhaps be a waste of my time.
id rather make them die for their government rather then the other way round - but just cynical I guess. as really i can' be arsed here. as there are only so many stores i can write - and yes how long does it take to gain market share? as this method isn't working at all. and i may have to try printing stuff off, going into town again. hoping the morons don't take the posters - which cost money to print - down. and yeah. someone joins. before i am otherwise forced to consider other options here. as al quada are probably right, the only language anyone understands these days is planes! as the rest is kind of lost/censored and hidden in rhetoric all round.
i'm of the view that everyone should know how to make a bomb as its basic chemsitry and should be tought at primary school - how else you going to get their interest there? - so i have issue with those laws/cases being repoted toay whre people being chargebeing held for what accounts to have material printed out/on their phone which is widly available on wikipedia. as its just a joke, and i though people would be rioting on the streets for incompetance like that. but apathy wins - and the slavers take it all. as no one would move a muscle to help anyone now. sulhper + potasiom nitrate + charcloe = explosive black powder.
be random switch the potasium nitrate for potasium chloride for a bigger bang. or try somethig like sulphuric acid [lead batteries] and nitric acid. with glyceron added in a cold water bath. and add it to some domacous earth. or try something a little bigger - who cares! any moron can work our that a morter is just a tube. which directs the thrust - so how anyone can call that risky is beyond me. if anything you need people to know what causes things to blow up. so they don't accidently kill themselves. i know thats boil sulpher at 400 derees. add some hydrogen to it (its basic electrolosis) and then kill ourselves with h2s. while were at it as well. so you really need them to know how to make chemicle weapons as well! as it comes with safty warning. certain chemicles need to be carefully mixed, and if you don't mix anything you won't invent anything. as anyne who ivents anythin mixed something to begin with! so quit your whinging and stop trying to charge people for knowing stuff - as if anything it should be encouraged in this day and age - as we can't all be mindless slaves like labour now!
how about we try some distiliation isnteas, of that uranium stuff, yellow ckae or what ever its called - see if we can get the densitiy up byond 20% perhaps theirs a market for that - in iran? would that make a sale? does britian know how to do tht? perhaps cut its deficit down a bit in in the interest of freedom of course. lets face it they sold vx gas to the americans so i can't see them quoting morality there. as they try and preach who can learn what! and well its not fair. as we all have a right to lear anything,and you don't get to say who learns what! as thats not your right at all - which is perhaps why you stil get people trying to flyaircraft into buildings!!!
freedom! consent/freewill, respect and leaving people alone - hell you might actually graduate into helping people achieve their aims- trying to help make the world a little place, rather then tryingto screw the few over, so the "16.2% majoiriy" can get rich again. while the 86.3% minority go where? europe or where? what with america spying onthier kids and all. suprised they didn't try the sexual offenses as well, for that lot! after all - spying on kids at home, sounds like grooming if you ask me. perhaps they should be on a register much like every other government which screws everyone else over - or is that the electralregister? the people who sign up to screwing over the few? ok that joke din't work. its late i'm tired and the only line i want to cross - is with the argentinaian president - lets face it, you woldn't do it with magie - ugly as hell - guess just sunk my chance there, too direct, perhaps if icome in from the side/ try some subtly instead? what was that again!
[im probably going to have to explain that joke as well - oops]
though it really would be cool if i could get her to recognse my indepedence here, perhaps as a f**K you britian gesture to tie up loose ends. as she seems really keen on the united nations bit. and i'm sure i could sell her on the article 15, 17 move. if only i could seduce my way in there, get some face time. or is that too direct? what works with female leader? or come to think of it any leader? and why isn't their any in britian at all?
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2/15/2010
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6:17 AM
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i also don't have time to write a journal entry up, as I don't think it helps my case.
certainly as i won't proof read it, like much of my stuff!
The problm is thus - no money coming in, and i need a solution fast as i recap the stuff done todate.
social networking site
internatonal news site
unfinished film scripts www.thedevillived.co.uk
unfinished/unpublishd books
the experiences of a satanic witch videos
my store which has sold nothing to date.
my attempts to hire myself out for tarot/counciling sessions
and a few other things, and i'm drawing a blank.
Its all the same, and nothing working other then mre sales, more tidy up, more improvemnts in the vain hope i hit criticle mass and something takes off which is why I am going to resort to carying thesextree sign down to durham again, in order to stand to drum up some publicity for the news bit.
obviously this will increase my numbers not at all - after all i don't have the hosting to substain a direct hit with lots - and well who wants to write the news anyway? other then me, as I consider my other networks, and the time spent building those up - as i a sure i will try and boost them as well.
but to what end? i still have the banks on my case, the council and everyone else, whinging about money and my inability to pay. which is why i decided to meditate on it.
the problem is i get more ideas, and more ways of pushing my skill set - i.e. with animatin in film, but its the same thing, nothing works and its me tying to master everything again - i was supposed to be an i.t. developer but since doing the psychic thing, and thegypsy episode of "your going to be an excellent buisnss man" nothings worked.
and i'm starting to loose patient with the lot - not the site, as i will do that regardless - but those bastard up above, when they come up with comments, your the antichrist, after another test.
the images, and probing almost seems like a test of the stuff i've learnt. probably me reading into it again, much like the satanic symbols on the wheel arches of the virgin ad. is it a subliminal sign, as someone really needs to bail me out - as time runs short.
obviously i think everyones just going to sit back watch me fail/starve to death or something else... but still i have to wounder at times. as i was actually drafting a book in my head = arrogant of me - on how to be a milionare, with me lecturing on my exerienes there, which is a joke as i've mde f**k all yet! and i'm sure the advice is better quality then some of the other stuff!
which is a bit of a joke really, considering, their is very little place for this to go.
a women did offer to do some wank vides though - which may mean i might get the porn bit up eventually, but that stuff doesn't pay either - as they are giving it away on redtube as well... as i consider my plans, my future and ... why the f**k am i printing stuff off, to stad in the cold in order to boost sales/branding again... as even if i was the antichrist i wouldn't touch it with a ten foot barge pole, as i have no interest in politics at all. i just want the money, and run!
assuming i ever saw anything again. what was money again? as i can do anything, and yet with no one willing to fund me, its useless as hell!
as i reflect on what advice i'd give instead - suicide/fail your exams and don't bother with life!as its a waste of f**king time in the end
or something like that!
no if you exus me, i have to print news.thesextree.co.uk on a sheet of paper, so i can push the news bit instead - wounder if i will come up with something else instead, as the moment you write it down, you almost invalidate it i.e. it only work if you say nothing at all, which has me woundering at times where my heart is! which has me woundering about that other image, with my hear carved out on someones sword.
as really i no longer give a f**k - or so i claim - other then survival anymore. i think exploding white houses were conected to the film, but i have no idea anymore, and yet i'm still here going nowhere and its anoying as hell inter alia bon sur
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2/6/2010
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gothiclight
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I need people to write the news, as i can't be arsed to do it myself.
note i've added nested links to the front page (took 30 mins) which seemed prefereably to nursing a 50p coke in the hope some auras turnd out right.
it was convuluted - but i got a set of auras of a women falling onto my lap, a hole in the wall, someone pokeing their hand through, a block to the right (3 steel blocks been put on from myside) people playing table tenns, a board being put up covering the hole, a dividing bar/and another cover abusinessman fllig through the ceilin (being cought) and a few other things. including a car hiting a lamp post. this was all when working at the computer today adding friends on myspace.
anyway i went out, this huge desire to go out, i was origionaly planning on staying in, forcing me to do stuff. anyway i thought the women fallig in my lap was the sign up i got here today! but then i ended up at the dsu bar at the same time as 3 blokes (may have been 4) and this woen walked in. and they asked about a hole in the wall. and i was standing in a position where the dividing bar goes up, and i was playing the aura back and going does this fit? as they went upstairs as well! and were playing what ever games they were.... though i refused to stick round to see if a women, was going to fall on my lap or anything else! as i prefered to get some work done! and well a bottle of wine in the house seemed preferable.
on the way back, their was a parked car - with the back smashed in, which made me thinkabout the car going into a lamp post, but i shook my head and walked on as ignoring other thoughts (the voices) and other plans - it was like, it almost fits but..... so i came up with a plan of nuking the broadsheets of the map, by giving people the tools to write the news for free. henc my change.
as you can have a newspaper for free! then i can charge fo letting you set the adverts up! (and a proper title) with the same functionaity as the time, daily mail, bbc news whic are exactlly the same which means we can stop paying journalsts because we the people can flag our own stories up - on digg, twitter/facebook and things like that. obviously the reason why all the journalists hate me - ignore my stories! whichis ironic as if they postd my story on the councl tax dispute/illegal break in under the mental health act when i posted it to them, i wouln' have need to write a bloody news site in the first place. ergo if they all end up out of work because of me its their own f**king fault, and i have a few other ideas as well, but we shall suck it and see as i keep seeing the white house blow up with every change/enhancement i make and thats worying me now! as i can see a link, but yes ---- a lot of my plans, seem to invovle followng the civil war lan/idea through to its logical conclusion - not plan/scnario i particulary want to see happen, but not one i'm scared of eithr, if you take my drift? as i see to be a victim of events here/trying tosurivive and well if they want a war - i have no issue with it...
but id rather someone bought me out/gave me lots of cash so i could work on other things instead, as i reckon i can give people the infrastructure to do most things for free/put other people out of work! which is why you perhaps need to reconsider your views on unemployment benefit as i reckn people pay too much for stuff as is and we should be doing it for free! which is perhaps why we need to consider marx and other ideas like that... just a thought! as i plan my next move:
how much does it cost to gain a channel on a satalight network btw? just curious (not that i'm the market currently at all, as i contrast it with net speeds as well perhas looking ahead way too far! as i rather like the idea of a speed camera esculting into a nuclear war (fits my sense of humour in the end) which is why i was hoping for alernatives to war
and just in case i left a business card on the cash point (some spare blue tak on the board above) as one of the voices said asshole one when i tried leaving one there before. and it made no sense as i was getting stuff which was scaring me off dong things previously, and well the fear seems artifical! as the more you do it - the more it vanishes as i used to (still do) get the asshole voice everything time i try and expand functionality/tidy up look and feel and thats the only thing you lot are interestedin!
everything else scares you off - and it seems in order to win this war, i have to improve look and feel as thats the only thing which appears to be holdingme back (that and i never proof read anythng/check my spelling) so yes i am getting very suspicios of thi reality as i appear capable of doing the same work as legion can. providing i just get on with it! as well all the stuffs their, more or less and well what is it you lot do again?
obviously your being paid, i get f**k all which is another problem, and why i wouldn't mind if people started blowingthings up in another civil war as well that seems test of strength/skill staminer/wis and well most of you would be crap at it - and its perhaps honest! as i might actually do better in that world if i can't bring any money in via this method at all!
i.e. none of you wouldhire me, because i was a psychic and a witch - and well -the more thin about it, as time runs out...
why am i humouring the system and all? theiris a time limit on my stuff, if the money runs out compleatly, i get nothing in - i may have no choice but to start killng people to survive i.e. it that or suicide as i already know britian [parliment] onl wants to f**k people like me over. so we shall see which wins, my business plan or fate - as i am only responding to events now!
and your all crap - obviousl civil wars take awhile to kick off (look at the delay in the first one) but the seeds are already there an the aura of the dominos as hit me already - and i'm in two minds which direction to take this now - sit back do nothing, let war happen - or do something else intead - actually i don't think i can change events, i just observe and watch as it deveops again...
tick tock - the mouse doth grow! and the big headed moros in parliment have missed the point again
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2/4/2010
1/30/2010
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gothiclight
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6:21 PM
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typical you get a clairvoynant flash of a the profile photo of someone on myspace before you add them - and then when you add them, you get sent a link to a what to do in nuclear fall out. one wonders if i should worry about things like this: http://www.youtube.com/faberoptime sometimes i have to wounder what is going through their heads.
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this lot doesn't help, when i remember the clairvoyant flashes when i went into dsu. planes moving on tehran, followed 5 mins later by the image of nukes going back into silos. which i thought was a joke - but perhaps i'm being nieve and well i wouldn't put it past the americans to think of this type of thing.
(perhaps just routine) but i thought the images were joking, as i was thinking of other stuff at the time - and its the type of thing you get in moving thoughts on. (think it was the day i got the orangutang image) which was the morning, then read the news story posted that day later - but i had no link back to the images in dsu so this type of thing makes me woried at times.
(i was hoping the world had moved on) i was hoping for something which would boost my sales (sigh)
in the meantime the efforts from my day are here:
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1/29/2010
1/26/2010
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gothiclight
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walked down to durham, went into dsu for a glass of coke. saw this aura of what looked to be the barmaid chucking me out as she was pouring the coke. I said nothing and went and sat down with my drink.
this other barmaid then comes in from downstairs, to get her and i see a general chucking out aura thingy... and well when she came back my curiosity got the better of me,so i had to go and ask. didn't I.
excuse me, "i saw this aura of you chucking me out" and need to know what you were up to...
apparently some beer was off, she said she would have asked anyway and she volunteered that closing was at 12. maybe it was because i'm drinking coke. i keep thinking if i drink water too much (its free) i will get removed like every other pub in durham, who hate that kind of thing. but that might be pushing it here.
Anyway i could find no link to the image, to anything which was going on at all *sigh* i think its the same barmaid i saw the tennis aura that time (i.e. she did play) so f**k knows what that was all about. got some auras of clocks later (the one i sell on my site) when i went to sit down, as well as an aura of a ghost thing in the alcove and a picture frame over my head. entire thing reminds me of the one in the angel a year or so ago now, the who was eating choclate all the time. (aura of her eating choclate) and the other staff confirmed she was stuffing her face with it _all_ the time.
perhaps i'm getting paranoid now, as they keep changing the times there. not that i was planning on staying out.
i also saw that bald bloke (guy i saw an aura of a flow in his head) as well. didn't say anything but he had the pentagram on his right ear instead this time. this is the one who commented that a women in greece said she had seen a girl following him around (i.e. hes had it before) and i wounder how much does need to be said to change things, influence events and how long does it take a seed to grow... as i keep seeing that type of thing on him instead of the flower, since i spoke that time.
and how big a seed do you need, to get the desired effect - or is that just better results (sigh) sulking now as that was crap. but i don't get images on everyone, just here and there. which adds to my anoyance as well. no concistency, but with some people its all the time. everytime they show up - i see an image on them at times. (strangers as well) as i reflect on dominos and chain effects. follow the auras, the people and connect the dots... (or is that just me passing the time)
so yeah f**k knows whats going on there, but i think i need a life!
as i'm not sure what i have qualifies now.
and i really need to fill in a tax form as well! i think (tehcnially its for the year before i delcared independence, so yeah... f**k - i made a loss, what more do they need to know)
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gothiclight
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2.5 - 3 years ago. i was looking for a job, working on this site. (early days) back when the gypsis hit me with the your going to be a sucesful business man, and a few ther things. when i had a vew clairvoyany images and auras of things.
mainly dominos lined up. (you know one of those dominos runs? hit one they all fall down) and it was shapped in multiple paths which went to a heart of dominoes. and they all fell down before a door way and its bugging the crap out of me, as i've got the image again today (not the heart bit) but the line bit going to the heart. and previously ive had dominos shaking not moving with it stressing me out before now
and well its still stressing me out but in a different way.
perhaps i no longer care. as back then i was getting auras of ants climbing all over me, other doorways and the comments needing to be balanced to pass through and other s**t of that nature. they were auras and well any attempts to get a job failed!
so i was stuck doing this site not thinking i could pull it off, and its kind of changed. over the last 3 years i would rather die then do anything else, to the point i announced indepence formation of a seperate state. article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of rights, while arguing the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave. and well i spent the entire day in mediation
as i've been under psychic attack as a female occultist just removed me for no reason on myspace/facebook/and another site. apparently i am a jerk and i have no idea why. as shes been saying lotd of good stuff in my direction. then next thing we're on msn, she strips off way too quick, i'm naked. andi think i did something wrong. as i should have said something else? as she wanted a demon in me or something - and well i think i've got my wires crossed. as she removed me! which perhaps teaches me for trying to speak to anyone.
tried to sort it out, and talk here around - but its hard to see what she expects of me! really
so this may be my first groupie gone bad. i never did trance! or rather its the one thing i couldn't do on the psychic courses actually i as crap on the psychic courses, everythings pretty random and you build up stories over time, but yeaah she was hot, and she kept going on about how she didn't want me to wank over her, forget about her. while arguing she was with a bloke, we couldn't meet up. and her moods/body language were changing from one extreme to the other. so yeah scared the hell out of me! in a i can't read this women - or whats going on in here head at all!
so it will perhaps teach me for speaking to anyone at all, pity she was hot. most women do not strip off that quick! either too shy or well i'm used to me being the one striping performing for them, so i think i may have got my wires crossed and should have complimented, said nice things intead. either way i've made a pigs ear of the entire thing.
anyway psychic attack/meditation cleared - and another balief notice showed up. i haven't batted an eyelid to it. now i keep coming back to magick and the job fiasco (biblical reference) being torn down, built back up. and certain other occultists who did magick to turn their life around. and well
i think its an act.
starting to think its not goingto matter what i say/or do at a certain point at these people are random.
i.e. they either see all good, or all bad with no inbetween. and to be honest the more i do, put into it - the more crazy they get (sort of) as i'm having trouble finding people who can sum things up (and this includes judges) as you just see prejudice/blinkers or some other flaw. and i've taken a 100 page document court case i wrote ages ago, and rejuced it to a paragraph.
the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave (article 4 - if only for legal grounds) and i refuse to be bound by any government i didn't elect. especially when they are locking witches up for their belief set (as their is no come back with the british government at all) and those christians just run, and anyway i should probably have been on benefit anyway. so why did i write 100 pages? to explain all that...
f**k knows, anyway i am not going to pay their crappy tax which is worse then ship money as i do not have the funds,and we the people didn't sign up to them! as most people voted against it anyway! not that that matters, as i wont be bound by the masses on this, as they fucked it up when they broke in here detained me for my belief set. and well its too late to appologise now, unless someone wants to write me a check for a few million (120?) so i can work on this site in peace! as thats where my minds at now inter alia bon sur!
i.e. trying to think what i can do, to move this on change it. but i keep coming back to those images - and i think i'm screwed no matter what i do now - as i don't think i can change events beyond a certain point. curious if any of it matters at all in the end (must do) as if you didn't do any work/write anything nothin would get done- which bemuses me a little - as i see no rason for going into people, delaying them. unless that experience is what shapes you into writting/speaking this crap up to begin with type thing (sigh) should have stuck with the monkey, as i suck at this
a few of the other dreams anoy me now. as you come under psychic attack and well something happens, and it goes and it weird. as i'm still left trying to work out how to spend my time to move it on
i either seem to be stuck with friend ads, standing in the steet or doing a few other things, and well i don't think it matters in the long run - and a lot of that hostility is yeah - wrong.
image is everything beyond a certain point perhaps? and i'm left just responding to events, not really being arsed with anything anymore. as its starting to get a joke!
speak, don't speak - make your f**king minds up as some of those reactions are extreme
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on the subject of clairyounce, certain image and changes to them. seem pluggig into emotion as you almost start wanting the image to change/do something else - and its kind of weird to explain as some images get no reaction at all. and stuff that did doesn't. and you keep getting hit with them, and yea - it goes. till nothing is left perhaps? and the pychic attack might have lifted something up, removed it as i'm not sure what these images are playing at, trying to prove beyond a certain point.
as even if you relax, you still get them - and there is a subtle emotional residue? or something and its yeah... no idea at all whats going on here! or if i'm supposed to read into it, ignore it - or intupret it beyond a certain point. their are themes,and some of the images progress over time (years) but...
is their a neat little plot or is it coming back onitself? i.e. in part i am the product of everything i am shown and do, and well beynd a certain point some things you wouldn't do and well others fall naturally into it. i.e. some things, thought bear no emotion, resistence at all (Feel right) and well others are like trying to push through treckle. unfortunatly if you do not face your fears and push the boundaries now and then you don't develop as a person.
i.e. you can improce sitting on the bed thinking about things, rehersing it. but come to doing it in practice with other people it just goes. and yet i am curious if just doing it live/practice in real life actually improves you quicker. or if you need the time to go with that. i.e. doing something early an the time spent meditating on it corrects it to thepoint its useful.
anyway talking giberish now - as how much practive makes perfect, and well how much theory do you need. and well what working in reality. as doing some stuff (on this site) or this life again. i would have done some things differently (still the site) but i wouldn't have wasted time on other crap, and i would have spent more time on well yeah... silly little things which bear no bearing onto it. as i think i lost steam early on - and that was a mistake. i.e. wrong emails/confirmaton mails an yeah silly little things which make no sense to anything. as i perhaps should have worked some stuff out sooner (missted the hints!!!) and thats the problem now. as their isn't a consistent hit in that regard. it almost as though people do things to flag things up.
and thats the problem, if your working on something, and or need a change. you get someone which does something, and your supposed to go ahhh - thats a problem, and jump on it perhaps?
not that it helps me with female occultists though. as the scarlet women seems a law unto herself, and i think i will just have to continue my life - confused. as i have no f**king idea what i did wrong here. most of the time i do! and thats really anoying here...
perhas i should have picked up on something? or said something else - but surely i can't be expected to be a word smith all the f**king time? or perhaps i didn't maintain a hard on (id got no sleep) or didn't say she looked good, so yeah argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh women! they will be the death of me!
its almost as though honesty has been turned into a crime or something, and well i wouldn't mind but she looked hot! so arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh keeps going on about how shes ugly, so i may have over complicated it. and/or should have typed instead... maybe i should have comened on the skull intead. as i don't see how you can win with women who build you up so! and then turn without women to the other extreme, start slagging you off as being a jerk and other things? as it should seems uncalled for an excessive amongst other things.
i.e. how can honestly thinking a womens hot, be a bad thing? (confused now)
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1/25/2010
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gothiclight
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we need some humour for times gone by, perhaps the one need to reign in parliment again.
after all the many can't be trusted at all:
(obviously this is my attempt at humur and to myknowlege this conversation has never taken place at all as i try and highlight some points)
the one: prime minister please shut up, you don't even have a majority here.
primeminsister: yes we do, we have more seats then everyone else.
the one: then please expain to me why only 16.2% of the population voted you in?
primeminister: errr well, not everyones entitled to vote
the one: i see, you do realise the monarch can take their seat at 12? and that your currently charging boys aged 10, 11 for the most brutal and hurendous crimes. so can you explain to me, how 16.2% of the population makes you a majority? or for that matter, how certain of your party, no longer want you in? how many voted you in?
primeminister (getting anoyed): you wern't voted in by anyone
the one: my vote isn't for sale, i am not a slave, and the many do not rule the one.
we exist to reign you in, as you lot have already f**ked this country over, how many times?
whats the deficit on again?
primeminister: 175 billion
the one: no thats how much you overspent last year, how much _is_ the deficit again?
primeminister: err, well
the one: *tapping fingers*
primeminister: err, we'll get back to you
the one: so are you actually going to pay it back anytime soon?
primeminister (smug grin): we are going to half it by 2014, as..
the one: NO that was the amount your overspending each f**king year! you have no plans for bringing money into this nation, and no plans of paying anyone back. and at this time - i have creditors breathing down my neck, asking when all this lot is going to be paid!
primeminister: errr
the one:you have been a very naughty boy, off with your head!
primeminister: you can't do that. you signed that agreement with the un
the one: so i did, so the question remains, what do i do with you, and your parliment. how much were your expenses last year?
primeminister: i was good,
the one: is that so? and your speaker?
primeminster: well.. perhaps we need more checks
the one: so you would have no objection to me, electing someone who hates the many int that position now would you. as i take up some of my old perogativies, and well keep an eye on you?
primenister: err
the one: after all, it is for the good of the people, and you lot have been naughty...
primeminister: well
theone: good, glad that ones settled then
primeminister: can i go now?
theone: you may, however i do have a minor little issue. with royal courts justicies, dismissing argument. with the statement its a democracy, while gareth bowen, from durham. argued "parliment is not the law"
primeminister: err thats something we aren;t willin go into now
theone: i see, and rounding witches up?
primeminister: well we thought he was ill
theone: please explain to me, how anyone arguing parliment is not the law, i am not a slave, and what was it: the many do not rule the one? is insane...
primeminister: (looking really uncomfy now)
theone: yes numbers, deficits and plans to pay it back? have you a date in mind?
primeminister: well...
theone: is this the election date?
primeminister: errr
theone: thought so
primeminister: sorry got to go
theone: yes you do!
and with that so do I as the many do not, and never will rule the one. I am not a slave. Parliment has no plans to pay the money back, and neither do I at this current time - not until i bring money in again andwe will die in defence of the land, before we surender to parliment, and their law.
durham council is not, and never was voted in by us and we will die before we recognise it here. see articles 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights for more. least i get into another rant on convention and the law |
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gothiclight
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demanding notice for a date. they canf*k off their. this is probably the point other people would start making threats of retalitary strikes on their land, if they invade this one....
i will leave that to the peoples discretion, as i'm not going to call for violence until they fire the first strike. invasion of this land, removal of goods is a breach of protocol 1, article 1 and trasspass we do not recognise duress in law, and will hold any government in contempt as the stuff is mine.
please note you are paying chrisitans and other religions off, while satanists and other pagans (the old man with pentagrams on his hand who was assaulted up by nhs staff) are being manhandeled into mental institutions against their wll. i will have none of it
your law sucks. we tried your system of government it doesn't work
that is why we declared independence citing article 15, 17 of the united nations decleration of human rights. you do not support human rights, you have no susppect from thep eople, and well your incompetant. we will never sign up to durham council, we will never give them money, and we are seriously questionig the wisdom of ever fillin in a tax form for the previous tax year!
we will defend this land and our people to the death!
(admitedly their is only one of me now) and the many do not rule the one, i am not a slave, parliment is not the law, and yeah i no longer care for your government, or your people at all.
so go to hell! free men live here, and we will defend the land to the death
(if 299 other people wish to join me in this site, and help me out) that would be good - but we are going to do it as one, or as many here!
EDIT: my dispute has nothing to do with the people on this site, as this is a dating site/social networking site/human rights site which was intended to cator for a range of views on the international scence in an effort to compete against the other american sites.while giving the people a change to write their own news stories. as it stands my life/career is going into making this work - notwithstanding issues with the psychic side/britian which is eating into my time - as i intend to keep improving it, and the features (look and feel) to the day i day! as i think a lot of its look and feel now, but i seem destined to go through the palastine crisis thing, begore making "peace with the many", if ever i do... but you might want to check out certain prophacies for more, as i know who i am now! and well the priest of satan approach is to hold onto goods for as long as possible, obviously with the knowlege that you can't be blackmailed with invasion/loss of them - as i distinguish between christian priests scared of owning gods/and the attrachment/fear of loss you get with them. as its subtle and the lines blur with time.
as it stands we will not surender our goods, or our land. and yeah we are using all our resources to bring money in here! please go to our www.cafepress.com/thesextree and buy something now. obviously we only get something like 25p for most things, and well i think the store hasn;t been paid for. so wed have to sell loads, before we see anything from that, type of thing. ce'st la vive - so much for marketing on the international scene
incidently if i don't stand up to britian, as one against many and see this out. i will never see a peace table. which perhaps means i am going to need to be shot in the head by britian (and they are going to have to mean it) before anyone buys into this. as i know how cynical some of the sides are.
as it stands. i am of the view - if i die. then i probably wasn't _the_ antichrist, and well if i live, meah your screwed as the interesting thing on the psychic attacks is.
these letters no longer have an effect.
the problem is. trying to meditate through that lot, and comingback to it. i just laugh - as i think it out, and those issues are none of my concern, as i'm woried about the next phase now.
which is perhaps the problem. anything britian can do fear wise, pales into comparison to the stuff on the spiritual side. so yeah what comes around, goes around as the saying goes. as the more they make demands, the more they make threats, the more the people will freeze them out, and well the bigger the resulting death toll wll be, as i think its not so much if anyone will die now, but how many. as you f**ked it up ages ago, and it takes ages for the calm to resurface and due to the anoying ripple effect. certain ideas/notion can't be undone. and while some of us are level headed and put it in context, others do not... so you may have a problem here. if you do not recognise our land, and grant the people indepence as they wanted in the first f**king place.
this is a council gone bad! the police force is insane, and well social services/nhs are just a bunch of racist bigots looking to surpress knowlege/get a high on power. as they try and compensate for their own mental ability to come to terms with anything on planet earth. they gravitate to picking off the weak. as though enslaving/bullying them grants them some purpose in life. personally they are scum, and hope they die!
i do not recognise any of their qualifications at all - they haveb't even read around any of the relvent subjects at all. so the fact your actually giving power to people to sign off, on who is and who isn't allowed to speak their mind/teach the occult in public is insane!
worse then the t-4 wards of nazi germani, and the gassing of the jews, and yes it is remoniscent of holding political prisioners ala the russians (to quote one of the unqliaified doctors there)
no such thing as schitzophrian, or mental illness. its all in the mind, and your simply failing to come to terms with your 6th sense inter alia!
the reason witches were outlawed in the bibble, was because some moron always figures it out. and learn the rule: i am not a slave, the many do not rule the one, and finds a voice and thats their fear. the people rally to justice, to common sense and to anyone who would uphold the law, protect the weak, and well parliment is not the law. and no goverment has the right to vote your freedom away
obviously others will perhaps get better at refining the rhetoritc/good at pubic speaking - but the principle is the same, that is what they fear with the occult!
as anyone on that path, has to loose their fear come to terms with self... and well they don't tend to kneel to morons and the rest of the sstem anymore. some are brought off like mohammed, others are executed like jesus, and well others go on to do world domination - depending if they stick to the law, or go f**k it. this game sucks, and its pay back time!
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1/24/2010
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gothiclight
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but i got hit with a lot of stuff on the psychic side. calling racism out (this is psychic attack)
and has me desperatily trying to go back over anything i write. (mentally) as someone driving past me today pipped their horn, stuck their finger up at me. walking back from tesco. unless thats the racist?
anyway i'm trying to clarify it as i have no idea why those voices are hitting me like that, as their must be a reason why?
anyway net result it
i end up posting the 69 situation with the offer to obamma (hes on glee) around. to a few more places, and that seems to be quiting it down
i.e. this is my deliberate attempt at balancing it out/trying to clarify things.
its insane - as i can't think of anything i've done anywhere else which could be construed as that, and id rather be thought as queer and its the only thing i can think of at this current time to balance it out.
bring peace. as i hate psychic attack and having to write a tight rope with words all the time. is anoying as hell. as i'm trying to work out, is their anything more obvious/dramtic which could be done given the time?
perhaps i need to add the image, suggestion on other stuff i do as the world peace bit is perhaps stale/out of date. badly written and i'm perhaps not coming across properly at all.
unless people are trying to twist the knife into the satanism thing. as i'm not christian/far right/national frot or any of the other religions which persuecute people for being themselves, and i don't want to be associated with any of that lot at all! as its evil in my view.
i.e. i declared indepenence citing article 15, 17 and have no link to britian at all! and its staying that way as far as i can tell
is this too ambigious? as i tend to write stuff, go back over it. and its ambigious as hell! and argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh
apparently my site is too complicated as well, and i need to simplify it. suggestions on navigation welcome here? as i'm trying to appeal to as many users as possible and i sympathise with interfaces and the user experience on that score, which is another point which is anoying me now. as if i'm under psychic attack - i can't do anything. and yet if i start writing stuff down (even gibberish) it goes away. so perhaps i have to keep talking indefinitly and that is the key (bore them to death) so they can't get a word in, or something like that...
do not learn the psychic side - as spirit will show up all the time, and make your life a living hell. as your continully corrected/given input for their agenda. and its anal as hell! trying to keep up, as really i would just like to live in peace, have the cash and do something else instead.
no i am not a slave, and i would rather die then work for someone else now
sharp shooters, and rivel militia (britian) please aim for the head if your going to take me down, as i would like this quick. apparently if spirit were to be belived i would have a blood clot on my brain from the bag incident. but frankly i don't believe a word they say half the time (and i think its ones of those esp sickness con jobs) as a test with wording. changed something made it vanish.
(this was repeated a couple of times) and it came on/went with deliberate intent. so physical injury aside i know they can give the illusion of fear/pain and sickness at other times. besides i believe in the reiki side. and yeah... not going to believe anything like that/worry about it. as its the least of my wories now as i want out of this game!
notwithstanding i seem to be getting more embroiled in the notion/idea of thermonuclear chess by the day (which is the type of thing id get off on - perhaps) because well i no longer beleive in this reality anymore. so yeah... why not! screw as many governments over as possible - for a joke, to p*** off spirit if nothing else, as really someone ought to back off, give me a frigging break here. as im responding to any real information i get, to the best of my ability! and their is a limit to what i can do. if everyone is going into me all the time (dont mean real people) mean spirit, as anyone on this side of the fence is tame, by comparison. unless i go into "i need their vote", praise mode. then everything you say. is trying not to ruffle their feathers/manage them as frankly you have no idea how unstable some of these people are.
fing/blidning coming out with all sorts of crap. like il block you, or other stuff, and its like why? i haven't said or done anything yet.
[note to self, really must start proof reading journal entries more, but that would take all day. and nothing would ever get done on my site at all *sigh* not that i can get anything done, if spirits going into me as well! how the fuck is a 69 position racist? come on, give me a break] |
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