The Sex Tree™

You might think your the odd one out, but in fact, you've just woken up the obvious. now i could lecture and perhaps your scraping the barrel to use me as a teacher, actually not really,(unless your close minded in which case, theres the door, i love a challenge, apple my dear?)

Now i'm one of the best, perhaps too good for now, as I can't stand anyone who doesn't know, and i seem to be unable to break it down anymore, in easy terms or have i just been surrounded by too many f**kwits in the science and academic industry, who won't try and do, or listen. So here's to my proof by exception method, and a logical strategic mind, comes in handy.

So yes i'm the beast, and Crowley's replacement, for he knew less then me.

And yes i tell you this for free I intend to break the pope to prove a point, I've turned the argument over, the hypocrisy of god, is that the devil in my story is the good guy. No more fear, no more illusions, and the frivolity ends, as the world grows up, and learns to the next stage, once and for all.

So yes read the beginning in the article section to see why and how i intend to break it down, in a universal and unified theory, in the published version. (not yet ready, my apologies for having few if any resources, and standing against one as many, the ignorance astounds me, and the stupidity, not really, but meh, what can we say)

The political point is to bang the heads of children, who have been so busy reading they have forgot the true meaning. ergo improvement in knowledge, as we stem the tide of dumbing down, and combat ignorance, with the apple and temptation.

So welcome to the last refuge of the desperate and the dammed if that is what you want, (only joking, takes a lot of courage, and balls to be an individual and risk prejudice at the hands of the masses) it's not that bad really, it's not. Though sharing knowledge has a price. and one you should know before bravely undertaking such experiments. I value my own experience, over the incompetence of the academic, and religious institutions, so i encourage you to do the same, and except the bite, and discover the true meaning of knowledge for yourselves, and at your own pace. For i see no barrier to learning, assuming your intent and will is there.

Be warned It sort of helps if you have an all murry style humour and declare a toast to Europe on behalf of "in the devil we stand", should be noted mines more dry, so trying to lower my appeal to the masses, it did not, and this worked without me stating that. *sigh* that they won;t understand. they never do. which is hlaf the problem, the refusual to see and state the obvious. That and you might take delight in opening the eyes of just one more person, expanding their horizons, and making thier lives better, freewill's a bitch though, but then thats the price we pay, for smug superiority, over the lesser sheep, who seek to persecute, use fear, staggering and ignorance as tools for suppression You want love come to the devil, and be by my side, you want masks and hypocrisy go to "god", (she loves me really, it's not what you think, as the pleasure sends the logic down my spine, and lets me share the secrets, to even the score) Especially for lilith in lust, ahh if only (alas poor yorick my bug bear, the snakes and my ex and her hand, long storey, but she's the grail, the adjustment to my mind sensitive readings.. and perhaps the solution to my needs, but still you win some, and you loose some, she showed too early, on this fools journey, yes a pixel out, more readable yes, but do you really look close enough)

Yet never fear the cost is dear, i'm neo in that i learn by my mistakes, the more you learn the better i and you get. simple really if only you didn't need to read around, or practice the art. That is the only downside for knowing too much, other then that be responsible, and there you go seeking solace in adjustment, cheers.

So who came to early for me? (see lust XI) before you get too confused I teach tarot, ergo it helps, you need to know and understand the esoteric meanings, else you might get confused with me at least, same for the tree, and kaballa, i've read around and it's necessary to break your fear and put it into context, (have a holograhic image, throwing at me then, meh what you gonna do, i'm only human, so never trust prophets, be your own conduit and learn the secret of the rose crown, before someone else does)

Perhaps you already opened up, Pandora's box, perhaps you've already known the pleasure of the priestess's II touch, or not, we each have skills, bits of the puzzle. shhhhhhhhh says angel Gabriel its a game.

So you've already experienced it, or something weird/ or know what your doing

Perhaps you've been experimenting with guided meditation cds, and then it all got weird, perhaps you opened up by mistake or started playing with tarot, perhaps started hearing the odd thing, weird sensations, perhaps dreams which come true. Your not cracking up, though perhaps you are, some people have diagnosed schizophrenia for similar symptoms. Not to say that there’s nothing to psychiatry. Just don’t take the drugs, well I wouldn’t anyway.

Starting Out, it's as easy as pi, to quote a doctor who episode, i like to share the personal, its what we need, to progress, no follow suit, and share it all, no blocks here

My experiences began when i started experimenting with watching dreams, tarot and then begin when I moved onto courses. Before the courses I was starting to freak out for I was worried that people would think i was insane. From an atheist, anti-religion background and as a scientist, it’s one thing reading theory, its another to experience the practical side, my fault I tried, and I was successful. Teach me to dismiss things out of hand, you always end up with egg on your face when you assume too much. Mother of all fucks up in fact. So assume nothing, and remember what ever remains however improbably is most likely to be the truth. Maybe.

I’m trying not to manipulate, and fall into their trap, but no matter what i type i see a target audience, I'm conscious of the subtle lead ins. i like it not, yet people will read what they want to read, no doubt censored by their upper. How just, and ironic to have that screen, to serve our need. and they see it not, now come to me. Lilith my love.

So I’m just going to knock it out really quick, and see what happens. Freewill and all.

Trying to appeal to everyone and knock barriers down, is awkward at best of times, but next to impossible (almost) for this controversial task, to bring the obvious into the light, and correct several thousand years for stupidity, more besides. the odds are stacked, against me. Kind of balanced i think. So help I command it, or at least ask nicely, *flutters eyelids, nicely* go on in return for knowledge, the apple shared, the apple offered, and the apple tempted.

Yet i think I shall only really score points with those who have experienced something in the paranormal, or begun the first steps into psychic development. I’m in too minds if its useful, or if ignorance is bliss, for life was certainly simpler with less cards on the table. Though with tarot I find more is useful. Statistical improbability goes out the window, when you actually try it. scare yourself give it a try. So much for the bridge of compromise on that score. To me it works, but that’s subjective like iching, astrology which i don’t believe, for i only find its useful the same way as precognitive tarot.

Some underlying lessons, read and study the thoth tarot.

Your logical mind is occupied while your instinct or something else comes out with the your instinctual responses. Of course I don’t expect anyone to buy that, you just build it up over time, with how frequent your guesses, and can it be ruled out to tricks of the mind. There’s always a few which can’t be ruled out, and you tend to find out the more you speak your mind and follow things up, the more correct you really are. So if you do pick up on anything, when I actually emailed a stranger to check, I was pleasantly surprised. It take confidence and as in all things its something you develop with practice. I wasn’t 100% accurate but I guessed more then I should have done.

See what I’ve done, I’ve written the statement as implanted a suggestion and its the wrong one at that. Actually I’ve taken the unusual step of removing it. As in all the courses I’ve been on I hate it when people say you might feel this, or that, or sense this. As that’s hypnotic suggestion and therefore down plays the quality of the experience. Much better if lots of people in a group pick up the same thing or perhaps as two of you. When no words were used, say in tantric visualisation. So change it or leave it? if i change it I’m a hypocrite and the page is called hypocrisy, yet if you don’t make a suggestion how do you stop people freaking out by talking about the type of things you could sense. As it stands I hate psychiatry, i’ve used it as a focus, but anything I pick up, I’ve picked up anyway with clairvoyance. Those annoying images in the mind, and sensations in the body which confuse the hell out of you, when you have no idea what they are trying to tell you. Hindsight is 20-20 especially with halucigenic overlays which also seem to give clues, and tip me off on current events. Events I always fuck up in interpreting till after it’s come and gone. At least to begin, with, then you long for the other, least it happen too often, actually not that bad, but it's always confusing, truth be told, too ambiguous you never know the context, and doing 5/6 things at once, who can be sure which is worse, friendly banter, or a point at one.

So much for being useful. Pattern matching, So you learn to dodge the bullets, by trail and error, if only you could learn by avoiding 20-20 hinsight, seems not. you will get it wrong, and thats how you grow, as you get more experienced, and/or accomplished. I never did think that until I started experimenting, it would get that far, but it did. They like it not, and your forced to stand your ground, and communicate more openly. never cross the line, least you turn out like them.

I was once a happy malnourished, fucked up goth, (still am, without Lilith at least on the diet side, carbohydrates appear not to limit it *grin*) who was a technical genius when it comes to computers, still am, on designing systems. often wearing a trench coat, which is now in pieces and having the piss taken out of me for being the crow, or neo. Making loads of cash, still do on the contract market. Assuming I’ve learnt to control the information, not sure I have. It seems to test me, throw you around like a rag doll, to the point you wonder who is the one in control. I am the legs. Yet free will is mine, only....

The only issue is there’s a few teething problems adjusting to the increase in information, its distracting when you don’t understand it. So I’ve sorted out most if not some of the kinks out, but its still tempting to stay in meditation, trance listening to it, as opposed to actually doing it. feedback loops are annoying. Its only with taking to people I trusted, who in turn didn’t think I was crazy because they themselves also developed it, that made me figure out some of the tricks of the trade. For your mind plays tricks and you have to be very careful you don’t read too much into it and jump to conclusions, that can set you back a long way. Because someone says it works for a reason, doesn’t make it so, and even then your only likely to believe it if you can observe it first hand. So is it useful taking about it perhaps not. Not the best explanation, not the worst, but then its distracting falling into the trap of trying to listen to the sensations you pick up as you write, you wouldn’t believe where it take me, actually you would, read the another book of lies. Assuming I get it published the god is evil, the devil is good. Read the world peace section for an update. It’s time to have some fun with the world when it comes to breaking fears down. Suggestion is manipulation, so in the devil we stand shall be the battle cry. If you can break the logic get in touch, I love to strengthen an argument, and be first past the post. I’ve already broken one priest, and those who have tried to convert me. Then absorbed what they knew into me, the borg if you will or neo after death, card 13 and begin able to go against the crowds.

That’s the analogy of the day. The tarot card is the devil. For in the devil we stand corrected, as that is the world and nature. Peace is at hand, for if we do not live with the world, we are going to be screwed and not in the good away, that would be corkscrew image of my e, i should have read as such rather then trying to give her the benefit of the doubt. The sexual warning images, and blow job images i misconstrued ,I took the literally not figuratively. She had another women in the image, who turned out to be the neighbour she had left the key to without permission. Arse i say.

That’s the problem with clairvoyance. Especially when you fear reprisal or an outcome, you force it down the wrong path in stubbornness. Hence it take awhile to break you and rebuild you so you can pay attention. Even the dream this morning, freaked me out wit the threat of legal action, from psychic tv. I sent them an email while drunk, advertising the site, i may have been too forward with one of the presenters who I recognised. Ooopps. My arm tells e its was a mistake, they like me or i’m a fool, and the fool is always right, as its the first step on the journey of enlightenment. So they say.

Who will open up enough to confirm or deny, that you get anywhere with it. My confidence goes up with successes, then logic kicks in and i try and throw it away as rubbish. Because this is the world of reason, and mystic bullshit has not place in it, yet i seem to know more the profits, so that must make me a big headed, egotistical nightmare. Or just someone who actually could be arsed to learn, what’s been written down for centuries, and give it a whirl. Blame the golden dawn, they were the ones who compiled most of the information, wicca extended it, now everyone else is rapidly using the internet to derive courses and try and get it amalgamated into our lives.

It’s pointless relying on that in the real world, as people and actions speak volumes. Perhaps it’s teaching me to pay attention to the vibes and break my fears down. Broken down, and the rebuilt. The breaking down is annoying, and doesn’t pay the mortgages. Yet happily there’s more and more people who are experiencing the same things, so the tide is beginning to turn.

so which is it to be. Lets ignore it and see if they are intelligent enough to make their own minds up. Mother of al fucks up that ones going to be. Perhaps. I see through it, when its sales, and this is going nowhere, too negative the more i read the more I want to write. Perhaps more books are in order, for i simply cannot leave it to stand as is.

I’ve learned a few tricks and there’s been times I though I was cracking up and was too scared to talk to anyone about it, in case they thought I was insane. Actually people still do, I see spiders over my family, and old friends and strangers as soon as you open your mouth and start talking about this type of thing as fact. For its not taught in schools so it’s bogus. Yeah right, like they ever wanted to teach you this in the first place, the priests conserved it for their own selfish ends. Which has set the world back how many centuries. This would get me on a rant, so I won’t bother. Ignore the crap they get you to regurgitate, ignore the assumptions, question authority, and try it for yourselves, and only then will you truly understand. For free will is an abstract concept as much as kether. Illusion the entire bleeding thing, so tear it down and being again. You set the boundaries, not them.

Fear not, there’s loads of people who experience it, its just most won’t discuss it!, or pass on their secrets for developing it. Or charge 13.99 for the secrets of the universe, which will be completely useless as you won’t bother to do the work. You can get the exercises for free, perhaps I’ve written stuff up, try visualising an aura between your hands while in the bath. I stopped when i started getting electrical shock, ok it was probably imagined, but stopped me relaxing in the bath, thankfully I have a hot tb, but that’s more in being entertained from my ex, and that image was not figurative it was literal. We give of voltage, we are batteries, all be it not much better then lemons. Skin resistance could be tied into it with stress levels. That’s receiving and for transmitting, assuming its not all made up, yet how would you know, if you haven’t given it a try. Range is the key to our successes, and picking up images before someone types it on msn, is most distracting if not entertaining as you wounder how can i have a conversation without trying to steer it down a particular avenue, you pick up their fears, and it goes all down hill form there, especially sexual connotations. I seem to specialise in confidence boosting for women. Perhaps its because they are more intuitive, forgiving? Actually scrap that one, a women scorned is hell on earth, radiation suit time, perhaps i don’t know not many men seem to experiment with it, and those that did have not been around since Crowley’s day. The exception to the rule before we start pulling gardener and al the others, ok i misspoke. Part of my problem I will know end ever to correct every other exception to a throw away statement, you should try me on theory, it would take hours. As i will give adjustment a bloody good kicking, jurisprudence, kama a few bug bares of mine, I shall not take a pot shot at government, I'm focusing on braking the ice and getting people talking. Without turning it into a sales pitch, I hate the bloody thing.

Probably why the site’s taking a while to kick off. Or there’s too many cyber men around, I used to be one technically still am at times if the sensations are not getting in the way, facebook grrr if only i had implemented my idea sooner, which has since changed and evolved to the point its not a se site, its a place to break down barriers and meet new people.

I should have kept the original trance write-up on the garden of eden and my take on it, which broke the devil into the hero, as he frees the people from slavery, oh I’ve just incorporated it again, theirs more to it then that, i always hated the bloody storey, but trying to amalgamate all your interests into one takes finesse, but it is possible, its amassing what a little creativity and public reordering can do. The rest is up to you, as i’ getting distracted again. Love without jealousy and the confidence booster when you realise that they do indeed think your hot soe are ore accurate then others, but you do see a trend when they all say the same thing. You have to wonder, perhaps you have some flaws you can fix, rather then blaming the other party. I prefer Lilith ore fun, she was number one, eve was number two. I like to pint that out as it encourages equality, and it bemuses me to think why any men wouldn’t want the women on top. Hello mr stupid, read the tantric notes. Sending spirit works on the subconscious but theirs no guarantee it will bring someone towards you, the telephone is far more effective, yet coincidences work on that assumption.

That’s where the running commentary comes in, fears are broken down and regurgitated. The damn has broken and the spiders crawl. That a euphemism for fear, as its spiders what i see for the symbol. Blame dream imagery for that one, but its amassing how many women freak out when they think its real spiders when you see their fears on psychic development. Analogy. I keep seeing the bridge of compromise and wondering if i’m leaning towards those that know and ignoring those who don’t like to here this kind of thing, yet if the are unwilling to listen to theory, your unlikely to unbox them, yet that’s a computer term for changing one sub type to another for they all derive from the base underlying object. So taken fro the right level of granularity, all things are the same or different. So want to play? The trick is finding their level of operation and then bridging it with smaller steps till they see it fro the others perspective, failed miserably with another of my exs, one i fancy. Perhaps if anyone can figure out why shes now in the middle and the stepping stones have grown really tall behind her, it would help, the other one is lots of steel under her feet and a trap door down to my level. I’ standing on the other side, sod it the more i write the more the mages change, so on to a looser with that one. Steph knows who i am, and the posters were nothing to do with me, though i read the i though t it was a piss take, were people really pulling on the same emotional backwater. Coincidence thing and people sharing the same names, a point was made once, that you have to be very specific as closest match is not necessarily how we say read the small print, what you think you asked for, and what you get are different chocolates, but if you get the coffee cream, yuck. So you should have added an extra clause stimulating the desire for a specific type, else you can’t complain. Interpretation is everything, people can’t read minds and even when we do, we tend to ignore it as we couldn’t have possibly read that, what if i was wrong, and its a mistake, what do you go on, other then the explicit. Avoid ambiguity and get it out in the opening, better in the long run.

Anyway, she was my defence against women, as once you have become immune then you have nothing to fear, as the day you understand death is the day, it matters not, and you go your own way, a lesson on clinginess I didn’t learn soon enough. You have to let them go, in order to win. The problem i have in that does gaining the armour, mean you loose your passion and your ability to forgive. I digress, and it was years ago, i just regret not being able to explain the psychic thing in such a way as not to freak her out, i crashed around her house one night, when i was learning it, no where to turn, and someone who’s never experiences anything doesn’t work. hence if anyone needs someone to talk to, the strange, the weird the wonderful, there’s plenty of people here. Either that check a website. There’s loads. Some teachers suck though. Not in a good way. Trust your instinct, as what’s right for one, is not necessarily right for another, and i’m not sure if i’d be suitable for teaching the young. I seem to developing too much of a desire to link everything into one. Socrates was killed, yes we know, there’s no point mentioning it again. Preaching to the perverted, is the way to go, for they are the ones who are the most insecure, and the act of learning to submit is part of the stage of learning to rebuild the will, mincing words here, pluralistic integrity. I’ve argued it from so many perspective it looses all meaning, y journal has more, perhaps the book, make your own minds up. Ask if you need, but i shall answer, so don’t ask unless you want to know, as spiders come out to play, and that usually leads to me being asked to leave the pub, for whispering an answer which they didn’t want to here. People who are shouting have lost the argument, they are desperately seeking some to latch onto to rebuild their foundations, so much for breaking down barriers and letting people open up, actually we hugged each other before the end, so parliament was undermined and progress was made. Debate and the sharing of ideas is what they don’t seem to like. They would rather people lived in silence of upsetting people, for political correctness, and that’s not freedom but slavery.

Rather than delay it and putting it off. That would have given me a three year lead though i was thinking clan wars which wouldn’t have worked. Back on sical networking site, before this convoluted site evolved uniting spiritual, bdsm, goth, and alternative parties all under one roof, uniting the masses under a banner for the antichrist. Hay everyone needs a hobby, and mine is to turn the world on its head and elevate some of the burden of fear, my desire is world peace and uniting opposites of thought, so there’s a meeting of minds in the middle. Europe is the solution as Britain has learned nothing from the time of the founding fathers, Ireland or anything else, sovereignty can rot, for i respect the bigotry and xenophobia not, fuck asylum laws, we are one and the same, we can fuck as one, or fuck as a group, if she’s a women and make me hard, who’s to complain. Its still a sex site, or the ranking are fun, so i’m pushing the buttons, the clit perhaps to get rid of the spiders. Too many people are too uptight and personal about privacy laws and that’s undermining society, a society built on mistrust is not going to get very far, loose the cameras, unless its for a show, you want to watch...

Maybe it would, but i digress. Functionality is the same, its just the aftercare service, the branding, the colour of the wallpaint, which separates us, and most systems and theories which people assume are different, when deep down they are one and the same. I’ve said that already, see what happens when you edit a document, it get disjointed and repetitive, rather like the political parties, who have no concept of speaking their minds, ok perhaps one exception, but its time for a change, and it would be nice if the police actually investigated and wrote things down correctly without trying to manipulate the cause of events.

It seems the more practice you get, the better you get. I’m no expert and I’ve only been doing it since November 2005 so not long and you wouldn’t believe the mess ups I’ve done trying to learn!!! Actually you would. , and it’s a bit like relying on hindsight to figure it out. So experience is yours for the asking, you just have to learn to live with your mistakes and the more times you try the more likely you are to score. Basketball image perhaps we should start on the allegory.

Its quicker to get to the bottom of things when people are open with their innermost thoughts. If only. You don’t always get people willing to practice or open up enough, to confirm or deny, in fact most people just freak, if you say you see something. Perhaps why I don’t do well at parties. I’m still torn between you have to mention it and acting on it, with finesse and subtlety. Tact err yes, sometimes I’m very good, its just humouring people backfires in the long run. Get it out in the open and move one. Its surprising how little people mind, when you do it, then ask permission later.

I’ve had experienced teachers believe they are seeing dead people, when in fact they have just been picking up on someone fears, well in my case anyway. So I’m trying not to rule anything out, and look at open mindedly. This is a slow process, yet one which shares many links between all the spiritual religions. The more you study the more questions, and the more it hurts initial progress, yet stops you being a complete basket case later on, too many lemons. Good for batteries.

I don’t expect anyone to take my experience as gospel either, I don’t care what you believe, I’m not even going to give a damn if you snub me. though id your a hot chick, you’ve just wasted an unforgettable opportunity for some fantastic sex. Yes to ego, no to god. Sod it its the same thing, from a different angle! Your crying over spilt milk. I prefer to rub their noses in it by pointing out the flaws. You do that by experiencing it yourself. As it’s amazing how it changes the context, context is everything. No am I supposed to draw manson to me or not, playing with goldfish. To manipulate or go with the flow, decisions, decisions. And I’m not manipulating it, because he’s a big boy and I slept with someone who turned him down. Ha. Though he can perhaps give me what’s her faces number, that dom chick.

Then again perhaps not. I’m bored of this. Too many cooks spoilt the broth. So politics and psychic development shall i stick to, whilst music to the other thing, sympathy of the devil, and the unholy trinity. My mind has wondered, never a good thing. I’m supposed to be putting people at ease. Focus. So that’s what gets him here. Yet public would completely go against the rule of silence, never a fan of it. Perhaps the law of media is stronger. Six degrees. Interfering with an idea or suggesting and making the people work for you. Pay it forward, works because it comes back to you. No need to delve into magick for that one.

I know what works for me, and what works for you is another kettle of fish. However I do get annoyed at people who claim open mindedness without actually trying the practice as well as the theory, the no hopers. Nothing is impossible if you put your mind to it. So as yoda says, there’s is no try, only do.

Things I’ve experienced learnt which I would have said were possible in my early twenties, I was working from a purely scientific background, techie, no people skills. Anyway from 27/28 when I started to change my perceptions, perhaps because I had turned my car over on the motorway working for a corporation. I said enough is enough, life is too short, that and perhaps too much matrix, as the religious symbolism is immense. The bullets are intellectual ones. That should be enough to figure the rest, there’s no point making a point, so I won’t. You’ll only fuck it up anyway. Perhaps not you, because your hot, so walk this way, too much toresterone, i got bored of sex, sex magick actually puts you off. Its more a case of burning bridges and the desire no longer holds, as you’ve neutralised it. A means to an end, and perhaps celibacy was misconstrued big time for orgasm and ejaculation are not the same thing! The priests might want to correct themselves on that one. A joke, if it works for you then go for it, I personally feel the dating seen works wonders for shredding your fears as your put into so many situations that you have concrete boots on. Perhaps we don’t go there, I’m supposed to be gentlemanly. Like they are going to buy that one with the name of the website, branding is one thing, but jiisshh you people are slow at times.

The tricks and the speed, well clairvoyance, flashes in head. I’ve personally ruled out body language for myself. As I get updates of other people, locations which turn out to be true. Precognitive dreams, not all dreams. Can be next day or perhaps covering two year periods. Again not sure is this predestination or freewill. Did i break the glass because i saw it. That happened. Could have just been warning me my desk was too messy and it was going to anyway. Then there’s hallucinations which are the most recent development, an extension of auras. So different things mean different things, perhaps tipping me off on politics, if only i understood before the events happened. I would be a lot better off.

So if your seeing shadows, whispers, feeling as though your being touched, perhaps energy sensations on different locations. Something which seems to mean different things, depending on the situation. Can be really pleasant as well. Other less so, if your fighting with yourself it always backfires. Oh I also experimented with pendulums to begin with. I’m highlighting experience not theory, as its the practice which gets you to the point of breaking it, and yes it is self hypnosis and you are reprogramming your mind, as a programmer its the first thing you learn, you are a system and with that you are the one in control So perhaps I am neo the hacker, who’s moved onto spiritual development. I’m a goth and certainly always dressed the part, I have long hair though. So he is the anti-christ. That’s what the setting you free is. He can show you the way, but you have to pack the bags and start up for yourself.

If you find yourself reacting in anger, or fearful of a situation then explore what is which makes you react in that way. The mirror of your soul. I’m not a psychiatrist and I’m not a councillor, I’m a bleeding computer programmer, ex one it seems at this rate. I may have come to far out of the system. In which case Morpheus was female and not black.

Right so anything is possible, and the more you relax the faster you think, the more you connect to higher intelligence, the more you start acting like the George Washington, and I’ve run out of time it seems. Yet we all have the same amount of time, the same amount of hours. Its how you loose them that counts. I’ve spent more time on the bridge of compromise then i care to remember, and I’ve spent too much time on the bench contemplating my thoughts, i’m in Durham find me there. If not find me online. I won’t laugh and I can perhaps push things on.

It was nice finding out that I was not the only one to see the image of someone else while I slept with someone. We compared notes the positions matched. So its not your fear, so much as a resonance, something like that, anyway just to say. Talking helps so I hope I’ve shed my skin. In a positive light. I’ll try and listen, and i’ll try nad pass things on. It’s jsut sometimes people ask, and they get upset when we jump around theory, practice and religion. I play devils advocate and you can’t take the horse to water. Well you can, its the drinking bit you can’t do. Yet i’m on drugs for writing that. Coka-cola. People are bound to drop the last bit, why I hate literal translation, you cant describe experiences, its something you have to do for yourself. Besides I’m pro-europe now. Hence my campaign for the antichrist as the first democratically elected president under the banner of in the devil we stand. So my banner has been raised here. That makes me an asshole. Tough. I’m learning to speak my mind, and so shall all of us, there has been to much fear, guilt and manipulation by the likes of those who leverage people. Of course the system depends on it, hence the reason while outside the system it backfires. For the system can not function as a whole, if too many people rebel. So this is zion. Not really but its the best we could come up with at the time. Analogy that’s the world I was looking for.

Right I’m very laid back, very sexually tolerant to the point I would parade myself around naked for all the female voyeurs, and let them pay me money to the point of tying it into a campaign for masturbate for Britain, in protested of privacy laws. Thank one of my exs for that one. That’s where the bdsm element of the site crept in, purely out of fun, and the ranking thing was a joke, it’s not deliberate, though its surprising the amount of jealousy it broke down, brought to the surface. Jealousy is bad so love without jealousy taken to its extreme gets you into tantric territory. Drifting into politics again so I shall stay shum. Especially after Applegate. Even open-minded relationships blow up in your face.

Why am I mentioning all this, well because I’m after trinity, a soul mate. The amount of romantic comedies I own would make you puke. I just have a habit of being a complete slut with ladies I fancy. So I see no reason why I can’t tie all my interests under one roof. Pardon the pun, say leg divider, knocked back onto her back, so I can play with her. Or perhaps me spread eagles while i experiment with Gnostic trance, sex magic and my partner plays. Lasted two hours with a hard on, being stimulated with that one. We stopped for safety reasons. The rest of the time I can be quite quick, actually depends on the women, as ladies it depends how turned on we are. Rather bemusing when you get them freaking out your taking too long, make your minds up! Sexist only because you deserve it, and you know I’ve worshiped the ground you work on literally, perhaps not you. I really must get out of that habit, I shall be what ever you want me to be, for I am water, and change and adapt to fit the scenario, and there’s no point making a point about anything, so I’m making small talk and read the responses inside, if you need to know more, and everyone has said nice things so hope it continues, constructive works, if you can’t be constructive then err say it anyway it amusing and i’ not the one in charge, you are. For I’m the devil and will forgive you all equally.

Creative licence on giving you exactly what you wanted, so be specific, especially the ladies for what you assume to have said and what you actually said are often not the same. Psychic does not imply telepathic mind reader, especially concerning does she or doesn’t she. For example Not with someone who doesn’t fancy me, is not the same as no. So when she gets seduction and sexual offers to demonstrate yes, she’d better not regurgitate as something else. Yes this was connected to that issue. My book of lies, sums it up more accurately as i weave the threads so you don’t know if your cong and going, and that makes some of the things encoded if you’ve had experience you know, if not then its meaningless. Perhaps it protects the innocent or corrupts the guilty, a lesson to those who play word smith, it backfires in your face if you assume the wrong thing. It’s not Christian Slater I’m seeing now.

My ideas and experiences that are going in a book, and are strictly on a need to know basis. I think i’ve figures something out, it’s not Christian slater and the right leg is telling me to trust what i’m writing, because i’m being led astray and its directed to someone else. My mind then kicks in and i resist it so i have no idea if it works or not, that’s the problem or the trick. Confidence trickster would say its absolutely this or that, i won’t. I prefer tarot, because I can judge intuition with as the pictures limit the guess, you don’t need the cards, but it stops it being hijacked by your own spite. My right leg is psychic so left must be logic, so right arm is not trusting my gut, while left is logic? Something like that, i’ve had more energy sensations of a different nature on my right leg, its no longer negative. No drugs I’m afraid.

So that’s what those images are. Arse i really have to choose my words more carefully. Yet right is still negative, so gets confusing when there’s more overlay. A weight there you go, has been dropped and I’m drowning, or was, no longer. I’m ranting while i write it stimulates what i pick up, and my journals have it in all the time, so best not worry too much. Its a personal exploration as well as trying to share everything with everyone. Something’s would take far too long, and I’m not sure if I can. Hence my sympathy for Crowley looking so darn miserable. Another book plug is coming, was going to say but plug, but i think something putting words into my mouth, again trance and saying the first thing. Listening is hard at first, its listening to a women in a nightclub and your smiling and nodding. So that’s not to say all mediums are frauds, I’m not a medium. Its just some regurgitate the same stories. Perhaps they don’t want to look a fool on stage. I wouldn’t. It comes and goes inconsistently.

Apologies people, i think if i say the right thing i get one sensation, and the wrong thing another one in my right leg. One is supportive the other is I’m misinforming. Unfortunately I’ve written so much, its going to take awhile to correct if ever, plus I’m so lazy I’m liable to be just as human as the next man, eddy izzard, shakes head, nods head. I like comedy. I’m being too dry, more sex. No less sex, more beer, serious i am, and playful in the bedroom, leaves group work out, perhaps a hot tub. Is this breaking the ice yet, just don’t say that to the bar women, she likes the other Manson too much, and this is bringing to get disjointed as I’m trying to write to the images, with no real plan. Ha dangerous that make you. Careful what you wish for you might get. Walk away and do something else.

Perhaps i should, i have a habit of reading things not as suggestions, so i miss the tip and blow it analysing what the hell it means, take the interview i had, hug him, i was so insistent on talking about my fears, that the more i was being corrected, the more i focused on that, rather then the person in question. So bit of a double edged sword, it corrects you, but without knowing why, you fall into the trap of being led away with it. so you have to correct yourself, it certainly strengthens your will, which is why your balancing a knife blade between humour and seriousness. Again I’m doing the same mistake. Hot tub anyone? Please two women this time, I’m not sharing it with blokes, while naked, did that with the bitch ex who took the lead and we followed, she wanted me to perform in front of him i think. I didn’t. She does apparently. No problems with multiple women, it’s where I draw the line. Strictly one women person, unless its casual in which case meh. I think she wanted him to screw her going by the images i picked up later in my bathroom, one of them did anyways, its when someone’s mind wonders and they appear you pick up the strangest holographic images of people doing what ever it is they were thinking of. Arse perhaps it was burning my own fears of, unless you count the time when I saw someone begging and then that person comes and begs in real life afterwards. It was a favour. Perhaps a tip off. Its not that fun when you get it in sex. Some peoples minds wonder by mistake, and hers wondered too frequently for comfort. I failed to ignore the warning signs, negativity sensations and the visual cues before renting the tenancy to her, i trusted where i should have known better. Spiteful reactions to previous housemate were replicated. So never mix business and pleasure, slap on the wrist, as I’m being indiscrete again. Should be talking about the psychic sensations.

Other times perhaps its other people thinking things, fears. still inconsistent, perhaps i should just stick with matrix analogies. This trying to appeal to everyone sucks, blow job from ex was actually her blowing me off, not the pleasurable one and the fucking image of her and a lady across the street were her giving my keys to her, subletting it out, and doing a runner. Not she wanted a threesome. You see how wishful thinking leads to the resistance and the fear sensations. You get a kick back. Not a good way to describe it, when you fight and you are stressed it like pushing again a brick wall, because your not looking to the obvious, even seeing her with a corkscrew had me trying to go no she wouldn’t do that, but she did. That’s her fear, saw a spider over her head. Perhaps its when i tell the truth and she cant twist it with her friends, now smiling, again trying to figure the images out, for when i do, i tend to replay it over previous conversations, encounters and adjust it to see if it makes sense. Its logic which takes over at that point. You need deductive reasoning to pick up on the clues and get to the bottom of what ever it is. Never write when angry i did that in some sections. It has to come out, or i use it as an example of how to bait a response from someone who has failed to open up and tell them what they think to their face. I’m getting good at that apparently. I find it hurts less in the long run, if you tell a women you don’t fancy them, or a boss, or a magistrate. Which she is after to get her deposit back, while i am going to do the same to her as she left without telling me and thus the damage to the garden was her responsibility. Perhaps i should have taken a leaf out the golden dawns book when it came to witches solving their disputes through the system and not head on, I’m being warned off talking about it, its not right, choosing your words, fearing as though they are going to be use against you. The graffiti came out, the fence was smashed and she lied.

Theres a witness which cooperates her story to the point of me being their that one time, but i have witnesses who would the other time with her, so let the person without sin cast the first rock, in the instant it won’t be anyone in the goth, bdsm community and certainly not the mainstream for your sins are yours not mine, hence why you shouldn’t judgemental about anyone’s way of life. Its a falsie to assume you know better then they do. Its your subjective reasoning or arrogance which as at fault. For life is life, and its a persons right to choose which makes us equal in the eyes of god as that just tells you how it is, in pictures, while your lower self twists it in shame. Yet god now means something altogether different so its the higher self to blame for it speaks ambiguously, which flushes the system of fear. So the lower is good because it knows where it stands with hard facts, while god is playing chess and your the legs. Not the nicest of images, but if you think your in control, if god is put in charge, then you better think again. Airing my dirty Landry in public, naked in order to prove a point. Chaucer has been striped by the preachers and is looking for a pint.

Arse I’m lecturing and getting pulled into a debate, its jerry springer, people earring on the side of caution, when in fact they should just pull up a chair and talk about it openly, for that’s how business is accomplished. If there’s enough tips in that, then so be it, a I’m not sure i drove the point home. Actually i know i haven’t as my bottom told me otherwise. Ca la vi. Other people reading this. Hamm your encounters with your past, and your experiences is what makes you who you are. So know a persons past, and you know them. Hence the sign you ex’s up and make a big deal, feign interest. So not helpful people. The more open you are, the more you learn. I feel another rant coming on. This is what happens i start writing and don’t want to leave it unbalanced, same with talking, i try and balance it, and it continues indefinitely, i know Heidi doesn’t say anything as theres no point, while i do, as it kind of reiterates the thought process, and the deductive reasoning going on to get to the point. No matter where i leave the statement the sensations tell me something else, which is why i have to say sod it, its not perfect but it will do, go to press. Actually in this case delete would be a far better option, yet once you’ve been with someone one, you cant delete them. Its happened, so live with it, take what you’ve learnt and apply it to the next unwary soul. If you know how they reacted in the past, you can offset trouble at the pass, or just side step it altogether.

I liked you up unto the point of is the words in my mind, I’m using her as an example and its begin misconstrued, too many conversations at once, she’s more a curiosity as I’m still figuring out the interpretations of a lot of things. Try it with work, i have been tipped off in advance on numerous occasions, early warning system. one of these times i shall learn to walk before i can run, for we don’t want to give you that, we want to solve world hunger, famine and everything under an implausible idea which scares the living shit out of my parents and anyone i meet, which tells me people have not dealt with their fears in childhood. It gets passed on, and the children are forced to deal with it. Postnatal depression is a thing of the past. not sure what that suggestions for.

it how to unite the alternative groups under one banner a new political party for err enlightenment and very laid back casual attitudes to drugs, prostitution and the youth of today. For they will learn knowledge is power, and the more you learn the better you do get, in work, play and spiritual excitement, as its more adrenaline pumping then a parachute jump, I’ve done both, and the early experiences were worse. Burning the fears off, why did I get it more then the others. Perhaps i listened to the entire cd, not a single track repeatedly for far too much, or as a goth, alternative outcast we had more negativity to burn off, especially regarding authority.

. I shall hope that is enough explanation, as your thoughts are what generates the change, so it’s best describes as spirit to earth, as a pulse on the pentagram. Most of you know that is the invocation line. I spend more time listening to the point then writing it down, and when i do that, i begin fighting it and the sensations change, as I’m forcing it with my will. Then i’m in control. Me. That’s why its a two way game, for one without the other is simply not cricket. Yet you are not a slave to your higher self, its something you have to learn to come to terms with on the bridge of compromise. Rushed as always. Ha, that’s the point in this instance, yet there’s no need to rush if you relax and think things out, it inadverably takes longer but the actual doing bit is so little time, so if you did it properly to begin with you would be ahead of the game. Oh right yes they want me to talk about the site, i did it in four weeks, and the rest was spent dealing with the psychic sensations and coming to terms with it, in such a way that i’m being prodded to write the stuff down, the tortoise i am. A quick study, you wish, if only you knew what I didn’t do. For the tools are not needed as your own mind is the key maker.

Though I have no qualms talking about it, with others who are. Its pointless doing it with those who aren’t. As concentrating on the mind, redirecting the flows, means the other half really isn’t getting any attention, unless she likes the cock ring and is facing the other way. I talk too much, and I talked like that in a police station when I got brought in for a common assault charge when there was no mens rea, and it was an accident! They were just messing with me, and I was annoyed at being pressured into a guilty verdict on the assumption it would be a warning, as I’m sure a lot of gullible innocent people would have taken that option instead of asserting their innocence. It’s why I hate bully tactics. So enough of the bullying, and enough of police continually writing statements down wrong. Which I’ve seen too many times when calling on them for help.

The magick incident after that where I called on kama/vengeance to teach the police a lesson for taking a persons liberty away unlawfully. Had me in tesco drawing down a huge emotional experience and visualisation and me rationalising a female policewomen driving a car, with another car going into the side of her, and her spine shattering. Needless to say I broke it off at the end, though my reasoning was that if i was the antichrist then it would happen. I scared the hell out of myself when a month/few weeks later saw the storey in Solihull. Too many inconsistencies to be me thankfully. As everyone knows magick doesn’t work, and wouldn’t stand up in court anyway. So all’s good that ends well, do unto others as you do unto yourself and kama is in play. I would draw parallels with boulders and exist strategy, i.e. you have a life’s plan, and things you want to accomplish but then I’d be borrowing for other psychics like Heidi at www.psychicourses.com so I shall direct you there for advice, if I’m too much for you. Shes nice, though assumes too much, while I try and confuse people by giving multiple theories and explanations, and backtrack and break the argument down, so either you like that or you don’t. I broke the guy in the pub for doing that. Hence i’m that antichrist because I don’t stay silent. I’m told by my ex that my halo is my cock ring, and i keep on shovelling, it’s sweet i hope. Puppy dog eyes, hair swishes, you know who you are my dear. Anyways this perhaps makes me the most unorthodox person to discuss things with. But then being prepared to turn the devil into a figure of hope, and the figurehead of Europe tends to require at least some balls and diplomacy skills.

For belief is divisive, while questioning belief unites instead of divides onthe bridge of compromise. So in the devil we stand shall be our cry, for the devil is pan, which is nature, which is the world, while trust in god leads to you doing the most stupid of things, not all of them in your best interests. So the wheel of fortune turns once more, and ages come and ages go. and the priests of the previous age look unto the coming of the next as the end of the world, while the good guys are the ones in black. For the system is crumbling, and needs some fresh insight, inspiration and vision, to restore the yin and yang concepts of balance and uniting it with the in god we trust. For kabala is one thing, and the higher and lower self is more an amalgamation on the bridge of compromise to produce gold. So with that I shall take the rear guard as in risk I always liked being the one who took on everyone else. So what that I accept the challange and will promote Europe .

In the devil we stand. In the meantime I continue to figure out the spirit guides clairvoyance and the meaning of symbolism. Ive figured out when people are holding out, that my right arm. I see spiders for fear on locations, so I know when someone’s scared of psychics, when they are scared of my right arm, the left means something else. When i say the right thing i get a wave down the back, buttocks if someone fancies me, adores my sense of humour. Left leg is when i figure out the assassin in the sting. Right leg still unsure about. I’m still failing to write this to the standard I should because the sensations are a give away. Yet its progress and they are forcing me to improve, a juggling act if you will, as writing to flashes can get confusing, so If my journals don’t look proof read, they aren’t I hardly ever proof read and sometimes it’s disjointed as I’m not longer writing from my perspective but another’s. We’ve been here already. It comes and goes, those who know me longer understand. But I’ve stuck a fork in it on a few occasions. actually its those times i write like that, that I’m closer to the truth then you realise for its more likely to make sense from the other persons perspective. Just a guess, no proof, just observation. So remember kiddies to learn and play, and take notes, i forte and its an arse to remember the exact time line. Memory skills help. You should be upto five dreams in a night within a month, else your not working hard enough! Don’t do it all the time, you need rest.

Right if you still want to play we me, talk or play battleships – Christian slater?? More a chess man myself and the westwing president. That and poker, but my cards are blank. Really they are for no sooner have i revealed them, I’ve moved on and that’s the problem. The mind is quick to analyse, interpret and shift through data. Which is why your a lousy date. For you can’t keep up, i need someone to shift with the times, and explore the unexpected. Or just kiss me. much easier then storming upstairs in a strop, because i didn’t pick up on the sign to fuck your brains out. the more i pick up on some things, the worse i get with others. The pendulum swings both ways, too much information. overloads the system and you second guess, when you should move to first base. You’ve scored a home run, and your on the post match analysis before you’ve actually done the run. Never ever criticise someone, to say someone shouldn’t do something because it reflects badly on you, your fears. for to love unconditionally means letting them do their own thing, regardless of the consequences for everyone is a rational, most of the time, human being who can pick and choose the chocolates of life. That analogy so sucked, paraphrase not. Ouuu bitchy come back from my higher self, cupid has shot me and the lovers have amalgamated the union is complete. That’s not physical but mental compatibility, if you think its physical your looking in the wrong place. Now that’s an interesting twist to the predicament. Someone’s being a smart arse, and its not me in this instance, for the halucigenic has changed direction. Yes I’m off again, and this time its private, meditate on it i shall. And perhaps rewrite the entire thing to compensate for not having a women to slip over it. nahh leave it to the world as proof for not what to do, in any given Sunday. Film reference for the last boy scout.

Clarification i told her i didn’t fancy her. Bdsm related incident, consenting adults, and one I went into immense detail with as I had to bring in the magick and psychic experiences. All because I picked up something in the pub, saying the more I told the truth, the more cash I would get. So i told too much truth. Seemed to keep them happy, it was a biased story from my ex, and was one which led to me spiralling fro the Buddhist side, the human rights lawyer due to the amount of abuses i picked up in the station, they kept pointing things out to me, and i didn’t follow it up. They have no regard for writing things down accurately. Pain in the arse if you ask me, they can twist it any which way. I trust them not in the slightest as they assume your doing polices if you present facts in a subjective and balanced argument. Which means you have to manipulate the police to get anything out of them. Which is why i failed obviously. I need to learn not to be a judge and put an extreme stance, so they will offset it and get someone in the middle. They showed bias and i’m annoyed about that, sexist they are. Too much defence for women who are too good at manipulating facts. Which is why you never get any money out the police when you tell the truth. The respect you not, if you don’t force them to capitulate. You are expected to be a bad ass legal attorney and that is not what i want to be, yet the system is forcing me to be nasty in order to get away with anything. So is it any wonder that parliament continues to undermine our rights and freedoms when the only thing at stake is to get the police doing their job in the first place, they have failed to investigate and think about anything. They are only capable of serving bits of paper, which is what they do extremely well, top gear would approve of their manipulation. For its harassment like that which made me despite them in the first place, its no wonder there’s an increase in terrorist activity. The speeding fines and their exceptions to human rights doctrine and peoples lack of knowledge is what’s going to set up the next election victory for the manifesto included as chapter one of my new book. Its the bit about the antichrist running for president of Europe, of course it assumes we change the constitution and embrace the principles of the human rights movement. Seems the way to rebel is going to be to make love not war, assuming we don’t fall into an Orwellian state. I need to be talking about psychics or bones. The tv series. Not the best portrayal of an open minded scientist, you need to explore everything, including in-between the legs of a good women. To get to the bottom of things, Crowley had it right, just he upset too many people along the way. I shall endeavour to upset less. Manson in my face again. Its the antichrist thing, is it me for being open minded with pluralistic thought and integrity. As questioning belief is what opens your mind to new discoveries, while assuming things, which is what happens in belief, turns the taps off. Yet you need to believe else you cant function, so double whammy. Your dammed if you do, your dammed if you don’t. And i work so much better if i don’t think. I turn off and write something else entirely, not me, the other. So time to turn the page and jump some place else, and hope the fall doesn’t kill you, as its the ground on impact, rincewind was right.

I’m a bitch as I’m not putting them at ease in bed. Look all i want is love, actually. I just mention this as im looking for trinity, cue violins and I can be an absolute tart. If I’m not boring you to death with my research, theories and ideas on how to turn god into the devil, and the devil into god. Hence the book. Call it devils advocate to the extreme, for when I pull that one off, I can turn black into white, and black into white with anything, words are what ever you want them to mean. Which is why I hate the manipulation thing. I’d rather be allowed to come out with the first thing on my mind, its usually right anyway. So don’t worry about saying the wrong thing. I want to share out experiences so we cab better understand it and rewrite the book. I know more then the other profits anyway. Certainly lost the paranoia of some of them, as the problem with interpretation is your own fears twist it, so how do we put this unless you’ve shed it, your going to fuck it up. Hence the reason hindsight works every time. So trust not others, look to yourself. For you have the potential to be all you can be. Orgasmic are some of the befits found in group work on other psychic courses, its amusing the reaction, and the images in my heads of being sucked off are not the same context as the other, if only i knew then, what I knew now. things could have been altogether different.

Yet how long does it take to get to terms with the weird and the unusual? No idea, I’ll let you

know when i do. It seems i’m getting better, i have my up moments, more frequently if a women is parading in front of me. or when I’m being asked to kneel and perform in private. If we are talking about psychic stuff, yes and now, it depends. Sometimes i want to throw the entire thing away and start afresh. Yet i keep on with it, and tie up the loose ends, for if i speak long enough it lends itself rather nicely to stand up comedy. Eddy izzard screwing paper away was what promoted this lot. Oh y joke wasn’t funny. I have a worse one why do programmers get confused between Christmas and Halloween. Oct 31 = dec 25. Again carol vordamon would find it funny, maybe. Its a maths joke!!! Again not funny. , so i don’t use it in seduction, did use space industry as a chat up line once, it worked wonderfully well with a comp-sci. Oka funnier joke how about the keystone cops, alas if it were not so true.

Psychic again: yeah right, but i’m not expecting you to turn your ind to it, you have not the once of mental capacity to accomplish it. black adder image. More humour. My style is coming out, a blending of opposites, art in progress. Hubble bubble toil and trouble.

Anyway these things happen. say you hear strange voices, images, perhaps your dreams are starting to happen. You want people to talk to, to share you points of view. Now i' m not the best, actually if i’m going to take the crow, i need to be, so work i shall till ia, hit me with the data download, and share your thoughts experiences on sex, my libido is down, so needs some work and intellectual stimulation while i get to the bottom of what works and not. Like the professional dom I knew who was kind enough to share her experiences on tantra and out of body experiences, while the more closer to home variety basically talked about it enough, so i tried to pick up on things, and it worked. So there you go by being brave enough to open your mouth, you set a chain reaction off, which creates energy in motion. For there’s an infinite source of wisdom all under one roof, the Satanists are harmless, though surprisingly know more then they let on at times, is it any wonder their numbers grow, for they have taken the time to learn and figure things out. yet without blending with the other religions and spirituality, you get no where. So Crowley was right to blend the threads and wicca was the next best thing, to bring the nature element in, so i’m just taking it to the natural conclusion of an infinite progression, which has introduced a random element into the equation and introduced neo as the antichrist figure, for he is the answer to the worlds answer. Of course no one buys this, other then the women in the red dress, for i corrupted her yesterday, and the blow job was fantastic. Not really but the more we talk, the more people wake up and realise that the antichrist is here, so raise the banner in the devil we stand and the symbol is the pentagram, either way will do. For it depends on what use you put it to, there’s nothing to fear, but fear itself. And do as you will shall be the whole of the law, just remember what you put comes back at you. So mote it be is a safety measure to put your mind at ease. But if you don’t wamt to do something it wont happen. Intent. Different mind process, check silva out, but be warned he’s views are a little too Christian and wrong on certain things. Oops pluralistic integrity says i cant do, actually its his scientific observation about certain anomalies which he dismisses as blood circulation, that’s a falsie as i get that when spirit is trying to contact me, without being relaxed, or if I’m being warned. So its just another means of communication, as i cant be arsed to make a point. Actually we could be both right, but context is the key. Manson again, how i write it dictates if I’m the antichrist or i win. Perhaps Sharon Osborne should decide who wears the crown. Intellectual v bad boy attitude which is the more dangerous. For Socrates was killed for corrupting the youth. Which is the more effective, the one who strings an argument together and takes the akido stance or the one who takes full on force. Who dares wins. is another key to the puzzle. I do both equally well. Chess anyone. And we are both together. We aren’t its just an idea we had, we being the royal we, upper and lower, though more upper in this case. Alchemical confusion. Dating the same livestock not the best choice.

someone once wrote that if you know what your talking about you don't. while if you admit to not knowing what the hell it could be, your on the right lines. Actually much has been written on it. upanishads has been para-phrased by me in this instance, they surprisingly give away more then the other texts, which get worse with age. The more upto speed we get the less knowledge they contain. Education system case in point, they no longer want kids to think, but to remember facts, which are pointless as everything is based on assumption, so fundamentally flawed. Kether case in point.

anyway i has a dream last night, several actually, not last night, for I’ve actually added to this since then. tends to happen when you've been practicing to pay attention. journals i threw away awhile back. too much detail to write down. anyway the suggestion, if you would call it that, as its more a gentle prod. was to stick something on the site in the journal sections which let those people know who were experiencing similar things, as being prepared to know nothing is how you remember it. that and the women in the red dress gets in the way. They are like busses they always come in toes, and my car is being dragged away for not making the rent. I need to go back into the system as I’m not sure this site is going to work as is. People are not opening up enough.

I found my parents didn’t take it well when i mentioned any of this, their fears got in the way, and that hinders peoples progress, you tend to lose friends and loved ones, and only end up dating those who are in a similar situation. Not many people, though more than you would think, our numbers grow daily, though perhaps not on the site. I tried felix the cat, but he shot me down, so i tried a press release on the bbc new site, followed by to the papers, while pissed a newt on red wine. I’m not a group person, i tend to prefer one on one, females who are dominant and tend to stay indoors more. Exciting stuff as well once in awhile, though long night drinking sessions of retards is not my thing, i seem to stick the subject of psychic development or larp, though if i write that i manipulate it again, which i don’t want to do.

My experiences are scattered in my journal and rants, as well as emails trying to explain my experiences to exs, i didn’t want to lose in the cross over, highway, homelessness more images. Writing without thinking again is getting me in trouble, I’ve missed the connection and waiting for the next train home. More matrix, it seems I’ve missed the point of the system. all i want to do is get to the source, so i need not provide for the future again. Yet the boulder is too large to leverage on your own, more is better, so how do you build a system where your not using them, unless they are all partners. Perhaps i will be felix the cat, and its all mine. Volunteers welcome, yet how to get them out of bed, what would be the motivation to get the fired up, and supporting the idea. Perhaps the alternative political party would have helped. It seems there is more preference to nail a thesis onto the cathedral door, then sell my soul for sixpence. Which is where the original devil analogy came in, today the card means the world, as the context has switched, yet the chains of bondage are figuratively that if she’s playing dom, or the spiritual backlashes and voices you get when you try and do something against someone. The price is right, you get infinite spiritual wisdom, not here, its a book. But it promises nothing, so why bother. Do it because it means something and you believe protocol one, article one means that you should educate people if they ask. A sticking point, yet none shall pass, for i have a question how does the pussy land, was going to do the buttering your bread, then turning it over. When the image of a pussy came in, and oh my god, that’s how he does it. to get where your supposed to be means trusting the images and not letting your fears get the better of you, for you will be guided to what feels right for you. So if i’m the antichrist catch a taxi and do what? nope doesn’t work, the analogy is wrong, eddy izzard again, i’m supposed to link back, oh right pusses, yes distracted, spread eagled, cokc rings, tied it up and let the blood rise, so you can get it to the crown. Stand up comic, perhaps needs more work, pawn star would do it. only to get even with some people. That would get her out the bed, perhaps not you. Hmmm.where to take this, i have no idea, can do anything, yet i want to just show people how it can be done. And tie the loose ends together later. So what is my superman thing, perhaps not that, though she likes to think so, psychic tv were put off. Why? Because i was openly critical about one of the psychics i saw at witch fest, perhaps i was hitting on her, not really she stired at me, in that way, so maybe it was a flick. Flirtatious, and it was the thoth deck, perhaps i do know more then them, oh dear, not sure i’m that arrogant, i am but other people come into the picture, and i really have no preference to what i do now. which kind of makes me open to abuse. Actually i do have a preference, its to be a peace mediator, on the bridge of compromise, politics is my game so with that i would like to stand for the first president elect for Europe as i have no clue what I’m doing and it might give me something to take the mind of everything else.

Link back to opening up. Eddy Izzard would make a joke i won’t as this was supposed to be a short piece to introduce people to me and get them taking my book more seriously. So that’s what that means, this time izzard took the taxi not sugar, this is where i find out that i can write to an audience, its just i’m not sure im in the mood to balance the silver spoon. Picture tip me off, when it goes off track and when i should introduce another concept. Blending the comedy, with politics, or business, or education. Trying to appeal to every audience, perhaps you should pick a topic, and i shall aim to please.

I deliberately held it in, until i took a course with someone i didn't know and then I met like minded people. Perhaps not the antichrist thing in the devil we stand, crash helmets. That’s going to take a high speed collision to knock that one into their heads. Nope road test. So taking in the devil we stand for a road test, hmmm not sure the example worked. Is this where i make a joke. Careful? The stars are watching. Yeah right. No ones watching, if they were they would have joined. See no voyeurs in the carpark, its better to play then watch, yet i liked the being watched. Perhaps why i leave my entires public, so i can keep taps on their responses. Only joking i’d get the pickup anyway. Not really, only sometimes, need to know, word to the wise, i’m never sure when to trust it, or ignore it as flight of fancy. I seem to get it the wrong way round. Politics again and im down playing the serious nature of the politician is wearing the crash helmet. Now the top gear star. That would mean they are going to crash and burn at the next election, because of what i have said. No ones taking me seriously, who cares, they are monkeys in suits, be yourself, and speak out loud, when your secure in your foundations because you know what it is, is true. You don’t mince around the bush and mo molums caught a taxi this time. They have something to add. Closer now. look them now and its a pitty i haven’t read this from the beginning, because it would make an excellent script, for a comedy of errors. The psychic who tried to reason it out in his text, to prove a point. Sod it when you know, you know, yet that takes confidence and hand holding. I’m less sure of things because i’m analysing it to death. Nope wrong option. Pick a topic and stick to it would be my advice, side tracked works not. Same as avoiding a point, when some times you mke a point, unless in politics when you know all the arguments are flawed , so its blow it up your ass time.

the course was ok, learnt a lot and lasted a year around haunted locations, it the method of the teaching i fell out with. people who assumed too much and told you thinks because its what they wanted to hear. so instead of looking at it scientifically, despite the fact it was an ex physicist. they taught things which they knew not to be true, instead of admitting we have experienced this, this and that, and we know these techniques work.

so that's my approach, take notes and admit i have no idea what i'm doing, rank amateur if you will. Something I’m not sure anyone does, of course i know more then the priests. Yet i’m a priest in the same way Lilith likes me. well it got me to read the book on luciferian tanta. I like not female politicians, after my last ex.

They assume one thing, i tend to come out with more then one possibility at a time. Confusing, but fun, if not a little scary, yet never fear nothing can turn you away apart from fear itself. perhaps a good dose of poison. So if someone teaches you something as fact, ignore them, they know not what they say i left a link in, i was tired i changed it not, and now look at the supposition.

Its easy to take notes, so please do, use the site that's what it's there for. i of course encourage people to go from their own perspective over others, however i do feel some people try and either over play it, which is not conductive. if you find yourself jumping at shadows in the dark, stop and think. eliminate the obvious first.

Other people including myself often ignore things afterwards, you can have a really strong experience which makes you rule on spirit, telepathy or something more, and then logic kick in and a few weeks later your going, no it could be possible, it's just not right. so yin and yang, illusion or something more. can you rule out body language, what about scientific readings?

i tend to prefer playing with the mind, after all it's all i have. so if you need a shoulder to cry on, perhaps not the best approach to take. i can be snappy, and i will either let you believe what you believe or correct you endlessly. so might bot have the best social skills, tact is not something i learnt as a child. diplo? what is the other saying i picked up.

however if you still feel like talking, remember who’s' the more foolish the fool, or the fool who follows the fool. i am almost certainly the fool, one of 22 steps it would seem. crowley and tom paine are probably my alter egos, combined.

again I’m not a trained, psychologist, or councillor, i am also not making any cash off this site as yet. Donations welcome if you feel like funding the anti-christ and his rise to eminence as the first democratically elected president of europe. that's my sense of humour and i'm serious too, not realy, yes i am. it's all worked out.

i’m leaving the typos in, i can be bothered with pretence. Presentation is one thing, but the idea matters more, the person even more so. Mo molum is not my type of a date, no offense, doesn’t turn me on. If i don’t fancy a person i will say upfront, and get it out the way. This will piss of ore people then it wins over, oh dear can i be myself and still promote the site site .blame the images on the people suggested to me, most of the time i haven’t been watching tv. For them to be close at hand.usually fresher stuff is used more then the older stud, with the exception of when it isn’t. Then i tend to pay more attention. Snap say the psychologist and the social worker. Perhaps a pattern is emerging. I clearly fancy mo-molum yet someone else is using it to dicate events. Unless she is egar to pledge support for in the devil we stand, in which case come on down.

anyway back to the spiritual issues, kaludani wakenings, energy sensations, flashes of insperation, if you want to steal a few tricks or even share your thoughts and experiences freely with those inside, come and join the party and get in touch!

I talk too much as it is, hence the fool, the wise man is silent, yet perhaps that is out of a fear of being wrong ;) Suggest things, but never assume to know, and anyone quoting a text as proof of life will be thrown out quicker then anything. respect your self not the opinions of other. listen but don't dictate. unless it's me, in which case it's allowed. only joking.

Back to the dream, how on hell did the poor dog get infected with sublinal messages, same as the owner who played it. perhaps keep pets out the room, fictions example, yet i can understand the type of dumb luck it would need to get a response, which was reasoned and scientific. i'm sure i was supposed to be better at the packaging of the offer, but then image is nothing, or is it everything. i care not, really i don't hence the reason i will probably be impressed or amused instead of shocked.

Ideas matter more, trying to get to the bottom of what really is going on with the mind and spirit. I find that most of the existing material is a little one sided, it's all superimposed on single belief systems, which make it flawed.

Just awkward I guess, that i reinvent the wheel. every bloody time. if you were expecting a sales pitch you came to the wrong place, no sign up and stop worrying. worship wil be frowned upon for that's not worthy of the fool. tarot the hierophant is long dead, if i get my way, the emporer too. distractions though useful. my Achilles heel was definitely lust. bored now, lets move on. the sun awaits. while the moon stood still.

Read the majpr arcana or my notes, if confused by that lot, there is logic to my madness. yes the antichrist, the last refuge of those who dare question belief, and do you have what it takes to stand against the neigh sayers, who seek to question freedom, in all it's forms. The stand is against, those who would use fear, guilt and manipulation against us.

You are more then you think, and we you and you will do better. fear is a temporary set back on your step to entrepreneurship. i'm not religious if you hadn't guessed, it's a take on those who fear religion, as once, the experiences kick in all those superstious fear and questions kick in. logic is reinstated eventually.

If anyone wants to experiment let me know. Anyway yes, if you really have no one to turn, to then ghost busters, i fear most of the haunted house stuff, is crap, its apparent that location is irrelevant and some of the things like sitting on a bench are amply sufficient to get the same sensation. if you expect it, then it happens. bit like build it and the come, only a few more people would be nice.

I don't bite, well not unless asked, and your female and I fancy you. Sorry blokes.

Oh yes your in distress and i'm not being sympathetic. now really i am, It's shocking some of the things you encounter, more adrenaline pumping them jumping out of a plane at 3500ft. So jump not to conclusions, but look to investigate what can and can't be done.

If only i'd stopped and listened a bit more, then it wouldn't have got out of hand. all the meditations are similar, pretty naff, it matters not, its the idea, and the repetition which matters as your reprogramming the brain to believe you can do it. that's the trick, you believe what you can accomplish, the more you believe its possible the more likely it is to be true. The rules of the game have changed, and a new piece is on the board, have your cake and eat it, Apple anyone?

Good, good. email gothiclight after joining as i appear to be the one who's got myself into this mess. laurel and hardy image in head, i really ought to get out of the habit of following suggestions. Lilth is behind me. what ever happened to the perfect ending, in all the bars, in all the gin joints, you had to walk into this site!

ca la vi.

The antichrist for the first democratically elected president of europe.

Unite us, with pluralistic integrity. My sense of humour, if your stupid enough to want, me the go for it. In the meantime, those investigating tarot, witchcraft and psychic development, I shall share my notes and experiences if you need a hand, too few are open minded enough to delve into these things, unaware.

Ca la vi

I loop ergo back to the beginning and do not pass go, and do not collect £200 mayfair is mine, and if you pay the rent my hearts not in it any more, she’s manipulated me for the last time, and i wanted to help people.

Sign up here, and have a chat, or post on the forums, journals are good place for sharing the results of your experiments! That's a hint btw

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My book is available to members, God is Evil, The Devil is Good, My manifesto for Europe Publishers call me. Before you loose out on the biggest book deal of the mileniuum. Maybe if i tidy it up, perhaps. rewrite a few chapters. perhaps its too over the top, or needs to be an extra to the site instead, the draft is up, while i work, as my other failed attempts at starting a book.